Off the Record

[Intro] [?] This one's 'Off the Record' [?] Reece in the building I don't even know if that makes any sense [Verse] Yo, I be drinking all my stress away Rolling on my ones, praying for a better day I know it's coming but it's hard to stay focused They getting to me and I know that they notice But fuck 'em, I got the ... that look out for me Every show fam, they've got it in their pouch for me Lost two brothers and I hope they're looking down on me Cause if they are man, I know that they'll be proud of me Yeah, my whole hood makes me sick You think you're real now you've got a couple sticks My favourite younger, he got stabbed in my bits And if he died fam, I promise I'd have quit Mum's life I would've rigged I'd have put one in his wig I'd have made sure somebody's mother lost her kid But he's here, so there's hope for us Cause when the doctor saved him, he saved both of us Yeah, I put my heart in this rap shit I'm too smart to be trapped in this trap shit They say don't go pop, keep it real fam Being real ain't gonna pay my mum's bills fam I've shed too many tears these past few years and I ain't tryna shed any more Lost some of my close friends due to fake shit, I had to drop man out, their hearts wasn't pure Yeah, too many snakes in the grass On my way, leaving them fakes in the past I be chasing my dream, tryna make it but it's all about making it last Dropped out my dad because he didn't see the vision I wanna spit bars, all he ever saw was prison He didn't think rapping could've made a living So I tell him turn on the radio and listen Yeah that's me, yeah that's me Got a buzz now I'm where I wanna be On my wave, I just want them to see I dropped out every hoe after P Money on my mind but pussyboy I know my worth I watched a friend die, it can't get any worse They see I've got a gift but they will never see my curse Drinking to the future man, they know we're coming first Devil in the bottle, I'm just tryna get my mind right These hoes only come around for the limelight These girls will trick you, most certainly Karma's a bitch, I know her personally But she's the only one I've got to turn this shit around, so many dark days, I need some bright ones Still surprised that my girl ain't left me but they say if she stick around then she the right one Do it for myself because Lord knows I deserve it Every single penny man, I've earned it But all this money can't bring my niggas back And if it could, man I promise I will burn it [Hook] Whatcha know about where I've been Whatcha know about where I come from Whatcha know about where I've been What I've done and where I wanna go [?] And all the girls and the money in the world can't replace the ones I've lost The close ones that I lost