Like Open Doors

[Hook: Evanescence Sample] How can you see into my eyes Like open doors [Verse 1: Youngin] Listen closely as I bare my motherfucking soul on this shit Cause this will never come again I forgot don't nobody give a fuck about the music that I make I'm the only nigga that'll hear I'm alone on this motherfucking planet Earth Shit I wonder why I'm here in the first place Is it for Amariana's sake, to help guide her in the right way And try to keep her safe But I'm failing at that too the truth is I don't even see her She cries every time I go And that image will forever be stuck in my head For how long, dog I don't even know And you don't even know the half of the shit I feel So how the fuck you gonna try to give me advice Why the fuck you think I'm quiet as shit, and I stay to myself It's the only way I act nice When I open my mouth a lot of evil comes out And the demons inside start to show face And they really show-off when I start to showcase This flow over beats with a lot of bass That I purposely place in the instrumental that I produce To get your muhfuckin speaker knocking, keep your body rocking But you'll never know it Cause a rapper from another city is who you jocking But fuck that, it's over with and done now and I'm one now With the fact that I'll never make it How the fuck I'm supposed to get love from the outside When my own homeboys won't even play it, and that's real shit That I deal with every motherfucking day So I always try my best to stay the fuck away I wake up in the morning and look into the mirror At my own face and say [Hook] [Verse 2: Youngin] This is something that I'm feeling from my fucking heart Can't you hear the fucking passion in my voice This the last song that you'll ever hear from me Until somebody decides to fuck with the boy All the Michael Jordans of the hood tend to always go unnoticed Cause they ain't got a way out People sitting around and waiting for them to make it The same people don't wanna help out I done already had a vision of my future And you wouldn't believe the shit a nigga saw Nobody was there, just me alone on the streets And let me tell you what a nigga saw Somehow BM knew where a nigga was And brought Amariana pass there to see me And I apologized because I failed her Please baby don't grow up to be me Illuminati want my mind, soul, and my body Secret society trying to keep their eyes on me Is it the eyes of above or below please tell me But I guess I gotta wait and see And I'm from D.C. not the DMV I could give a motherfuck about your unity Especially when I'm hated by my own people cause of my skin Light skin, dark skin, please We are all the same to the people that's running this shit And y'all killing niggas over shoes And the KKK probably sitting back chilling All they gotta do is turn on the evening news, and enjoy the show And if I die today let the record show Nobody ever knew another one of me This a suicide note from an emcee Time to put this rap shit six feet under me and I'm wondering [Hook] [Verse 3: Youngin] My heartbeats getting weaker, every time that I speak on a new beat And my soul is escaping as i mix it all down But soon I'll be at peace I'm at war with my inner-self because he wants to be exposed But the physical won't let him out And the animosity inside is getting real I'mma fuck around and end up in the crazy house I got a bottle of pills and a blade right beside me Trying to figure out how I wanna go And I've been trying to escape through an exit What's keeping me around I don't even know But it's holding me back I wish it lets go And let me move on with the life I wanna live I'm convinced that Earth is hell and we've been sent here To suffer through eternal punishment As the world turns, we need to learn more about it So we can be properly prepared for Armageddon I see the reaper closing in and he getting closer and closer And fuck it dog I'mma let him Because I'm ready to go, I done had it up to hear With this bullshit that I'm feeling in my heart It's only one way to achieve complete freedom And that's to go join B.I.G. and Pac And like B.I.G. said "you're nobody 'til somebody kills you" But what about killing yourself I guess I gotta forever be unknown and unseen Like a nigga album that got shelved As I take a final look into the mirror, my life gets weirder I don't believe who I see Is it you Gary, he responds with a head nod Then looks deeply into my eyes, as he asks me [Hook] [Outro: Youngin] Now i lay me down to rest I had some shit to get off my chest I plan to die right where this song ends I pray God let's me in but I don't give a f... (gunshot)