Sometimes

[Verse] 20 years old and still I'm soul searching All I want in life is to know my sole purpose Everyday I'm trying to figure out what my worth is I'm just a flawed human, I'm far from being perfect I don't know, man, I'm trying to work it Sometimes I consider the noose my only option Don't know the world around me, I'm very boxed in Locked in my own reality, not sure what's real no more They often like me for a good laugh, oh I know But when the laugh is over it's like they all gone Does anyone even really care though? Maybe I care too much Maybe I'm too distant, maybe it's all my fault and such I'm preparing myself, but will I make it out there? I can't even ever approach people without fear Look around and see people doing many things Look back at myself and wonder if I'm good for anything Nobody really knows me, stop saying you know me I'm very, very lonely, don't have too many homies Why don't you come by just to say hi? I'm a very nice guy, aren't I? Oh my There's more to me than what meets the eye There's a lot that lays beneath this smile These thoughts are hot in my mind, feel like I'm melting But I guess that's true for everyone, I'm being selfish I'm a very happy person only with a troubled soul Have experienced a little bit as far as trouble goes My mental scars don't heal very well, I'm in pain Can't even really sleep at night, my mind's insane I'm strange, somewhere along the way I was led astray Looking at myself in the mirror could mess up a whole day Regret a lot of stuff that I've said No one would probably notice if I ended up dead Still I'm gon' live til I die and nobody can stop me But I put other lives before mine cause they more costly So many hurdles, why was I not born a better person? I'm just my average regular self, wanna be a better version A little bit of intelligence wouldn't really hurt me Don't ever have anything to talk about, I'm very boring Sometimes I cry myself to sleep and the tears are pouring Shit is deep, a different side of me, I'm exploring But these are past thoughts from my past self, let's go on I'm in a better place, these feelings are long gone All that's missing now is the gentle touch from my loved one I'm certain it's gon' happen one day, I believe Watch me succeed, I'm 'bout to kill shit for the time being Step in the room and my presence alone will inspire Don't need any drugs in my system for me to be higher Spread my wings in the air, I'm gonna be so much flyer Than everyone, everywhere, everytime, I'm just so cool Oh I'm feeling myself, I know you feeling me too I realized I'm actually pretty awesome and so are you Don't bow to no one but God, you just a man I'll fix every problem in the world then do the justice dance You better believe that's just the way I am Sometimes I smile when I wake up then I be laughing Look at every negative thing in my life and just trash it No matter what you been through, no matter how you feel In the end it's all gonna be alright, just look at me Just look at me, just look at you, just look at you