I'm Not Gonna Lie To You

And I sat by and watched as everything that I sat by and watched slowly fell to shit And you asked me who I'd been before as we piled towels against the door To not let off the smoke alarm down the hall And I said someone you never would have met And you asked me why I was so scared As we set fire to our bed It was something I'd suggested What I fear most is my own head We talked Bonnie and Clyde and about all the extra time we'd have to set up and divide ourselves [Chorus] But I'm not gonna lie to you Lately I've been thinking of giving up Using the gifts that I've surely squandered on something less reliant on luck And I haven't slept properly since 2006 But I've had some of the most glorious moments of happiness And I turned off my phone again and let's get lost in what is left of memories of happy times We'll reminisce and not regret And your eyes can tell me everything and I hope you know I'm lying and when reality kicks in You know I loved you more and more But I am scared of what I've done and I'm so scared of what's to come But I know I've done nothing wrong, since the night we met Because you kept me alive and gave me reasons to survive And I'll take you away from here by any means I can [Chorus] We scattered like cigarette butts in a sea breeze I wish I could inhale the ocean, make my body clean And the drugs they work It's just that I don't