Finality

(Dude, it's like… it's like when you wake up and your skin don't fit right, you know? I mean, what do you do? Their words don't mean nothing, man Nothing Hear everything is knowing that this world ain't right for you? Man, that's fucked So fucked What kind of security blanket is faith that at the end of the day the end of the tunnel is blackness? Man, we ain't all meant for greatness I know that I ain't stupid but I mean, how do you cure what to you, with each breath, equals sickness? Maybe there is a second life A new chance, you know? I ain't gonna know it til this one's through That's what it is That's where we at Joshua: That's what's up What do you know Of a troubled man Who's also strugglin Sore of this, the script he follows But also coupled within His heart and the lump in his throat when he swallows is hardening And no one hearing him Is what's really killing him So sick of the outside world He's always staring in He told the only girl that he loves She should have married him Empty was his pocket And the engagement ring that he carried And he kept it in a locket To keep it from damaging Though he never took it out Out of his anger He punched the walls with his fists That actually made his paper He was actin like he's made of nothing Love ones should have seen it comin Buried deeper in his southern Knife was twisting in his stomach He tried desperately not to desecrate his destiny Less it be him or them He put all his blood and energy Plenty Into every single step along the way Why would he pray? He said God wouldn't listen anyway He tried to tell them things that they don't want to know Although their eyes are open he thinks that they're closed When his mother wakes up She might have to clean up This little mess That her boy has turned into He tried to tell them things that they don't want to know Although their eyes are open he thinks that they're closed When his mother wakes up She might have to clean up This little mess That her baby boy has turned into The second son Was treated second to none So right off the bat He does not blame anyone There are just some things that will never add up If he listened to his father his dad would have said to man up And stand up There are things he can't touch Or put his finger on In other words kept them stashed up Til it grew into an all consuming Looming darkness different tuning There is nothing that can stop him He's decided he's gonna do it Gonna go through with it, and that's it Of his sin he is conviced Started saying his goodbyes Giving away all his shit Turned his cell off Told his ex-girl off Said good riddance to a planet he can't wait to get hell off He'd deny it But he already once tried it But he couldn't get the knife to pierce the skin without crying But this time he had a foolproof plan To disband He would never see his parents or get picked on again and… He tried to tell them things that they don't want to know Although their eyes are open he thinks that they're closed When his mother wakes up She might have to clean up This little mess That her boy has turned into He tried to tell them things that they don't want to know Although their eyes are open he thinks that they're closed When his mother wakes up She might have to clean up This little mess That her baby boy has turned into He sits all alone in his room Door is locked Gun in hand Sweaty and tremblin He is now not sure if he even can go through with it Tries to find the mindset of when he's sure he was doin it He looks at the posters on his wall he's had since he was a kid Now black light Led Zeppelin, and one of Jim Morrison He puts on His favorite song Listens hard and long And thinks back on the details of what went so wrong All those hardcore shows he used to go to as a kid And I feel so alone All a sudden don't mean shit And all the money spent by his parents on the doctors To try and stop the sickness But it only got darker Thinks to himself Whatever's after this Has got to be better than here Cause this is madness So with that he counted down from ten And with his last breath whispered "Goodbye and amen." [A gunshot, and a woman screaming "Joshua! Joshua please! Oh God! Please! Open this door Joshua!"] He tried to tell them things that they don't want to know Although their eyes are open he thinks that they're closed When his mother wakes up She might have to clean up This little mess That her boy has turned into He tried to tell them things that they don't want to know Although their eyes are open he thinks that they're closed When his mother wakes up She might have to clean up This little mess That her baby boy has turned into He tried to tell them things that they don't want To know Although their eyes are open he thinks that they're closed When his mother wakes up She might have to clean up This little mess That her boy has turned into)