Everything As Planned

I don't sleep at night I just lay and think About if everything went just how I've planned And how nothing is going how I've planned I'm tied down to the bed I've made The one I've said that I have left I shouldn't speak before I know I've built and rebuilt the bed I lay in But I always end up restless in the same place I don't sleep at night And I don't know what to think About the life I've made for myself Or have I created my own hell? Did I set myself up to fail? Tried to take care of everyone else Neglected taking care of myself How can I take care of anyone else? The one thing I wanted most Was lost because of my own My own irresponsibility Do I gets many chances as it takes? Or have I not earned them? Tell me that I have earned them Tell me that I can... Start sleeping through the night Will you tell me that I've created a life for myself None of us were made to fail I know without taking care of myself I can never take care of anyone else Will I start to sleep at night? Or will I just lay and think? About how if everything went just how I've planned Or if I'm better off it never has Will I start to sleep? Or will I just lay in bed? Will I start to sleep at night?