Forgiveness

[Intro: Verb T] Uh Yeah Uh Yeah Uh [Verse 1: Verb T] Particles and dust of old worlds sit along me Surrounded by all of one’s was and what got me Spitting out the poison in my mouth, I watched it twist around And hit the ground, I’m tryna to figure out if I fit the crown The deep depression, keeping it in check Shaking out the stress, anger, hatred, and the disrespect What’s the price I pay for worrying my life away Time and time again, thoughts emerge like a tidal wave Kind of strange, self destruction on my mind again I remain searching in the clouds for the higher planes Forgive me please, I don’t mean to sound ungrateful There’s a lot of love from friends and I appreciate you I’ve been very lucky, but I also ram myself into the ground Moving ‘round without resting and losing out I feel stupid now, I hold my hands open A man broken, but far from hopeless [Hook 2x: Verb T] I hold my hands out, please forgive me I feel like a strange energy is with me In a way, this is absurd to feel You can call it self-righteousness versus guilt I hold my hands out, please forgive me I feel like a strange energy is with me In a way, this is absurd to feel Looking for the right path and I’m searching still [Verse 2: Moreone] [?] between wanting to be Harvey Dent and Clark Kent I swear I keep a self-destruct button at arm’s length It’s like I’m dealing with a thirst that I can’t quench I’m playing snakes and ladders with a cat and a sharp fence I’m looking at the situation that I’m in With countless [?] little pricks praying that I pack it in Never will I sack it off and give ‘em all the satisfaction Everyday’s a battle with myself that I have to win Handling the pressure, dealing with the nonsense Feeling like Stan living with a guilty conscience We all find it hard to admit when we done wrong For instance, with business tryna figure out where money’s gone And a wise man forgives but he don’t forget ‘Cause otherwise he’ll be living with a load of regrets Yo we should all try swallowing our pride Now telling ourselves tomorrow’s gonna be fine [Hook] [Verse 3: Smellington Piff] Still searching, tryna find forgiveness Even though I know I’m never wrong in my business Righteous, yet I’m a walking contradiction Talking to the devil then my head with the prediction If I never felt pain, I’ll think that everything was fiction Nothing here’s real, everyone’s a famed fake Where you get stabbed in the back with a painstake Just for name sake, these situations give me brain ache I play the game with a plain face And enough tricks up my sleeve to save grace, remember A good friend’s worth two in the end You only repent to relapse and do it again Make a mistake and learn, or face your fate and burn Wait to take your turn, or chase and bait the worm It’s debatable, I hold my hands out with a papal bull The guilt’s inescapable, don’t get caught in it [Hook]