Cry You a River

[Verse 1] The moment you squeezed the trigger, I felt dissed How the hell could you be so selfish, the current events that led up to this moment You masqueraded your death wish, you ain't think I had the mental capacity To comprehended your troubles and theft ness So subtle I'm breathless, I'mma be just like you was my old model That was before you murked my best friend, big cousin and role model Left my soul hollow, now I hold bottles of E and J And drown myself in this alcoholic slow sorrow And I find myself not taking sips, but whole swallows And my outlook on life's meaning is so shallow You led by example Your life was the blueprint I was supposed to go follow Back to fishing due to the fact you missing At a crossroads cause at the wake of your untimely demise You sent me on a backwards mission Shit, I only pray that Allah has mercy on your soul upon his acquisition I can't help but find it suitable cursing You fucked up a beautiful person And still on judgment day I pray your sole gets acquitted Without question I'll always love you, I just hate the horrible act you committed [Hook] 2X I'll cry you a river If not, then this song I'll try and deliver I'm still in denial, you can't die you my nigga I'm all out of liquor so I'm pouring out my heart to you...my nigga [Verse 2] I'd be lying through my grill if I said it's been all lovely It ain't all good it's been a slow recovery Except when I'm drunk and bubbly Although on certain days I swear I feel your brotherly spirit hover above me Shit, I almost died seven years ago Think God point you when he said prevention for my divine intervention If not, then God I wish you do such Lately I've been faced with adversity and dealing with issues too much No shoulders to lean on, if they ain't cold then they hunched up A few family members is genuine and a bunch suck I know it's foul, even at reunions some don't show a smile Even though most of us are almost 30-years old with child The degrees of separation lures my heart Where's the offspring supposed to start? Cause sometimes even the thickest of blood grows apart Am I too old or smart? Even she knows when the goodbyes and hellos is tart Time don't heal every wound sometimes it adds to the sufferage I'm knowing as if life wasn't enough a bitch Your presence is missing; still I know your spiritual essence will listen Give your brother my blessings in prison [Hook 2X] [Verse 3] They say suicides an unforgivable act Can't sneak into God's graces there's no visible cracks So when it's time for him to revisit the facts, I'm praying That you an exception to the rule and he'll review every individuals tracks Lord I hope you see the goodness that was But keep a spot in your heart for him and the heavenly hood that's above I understood it's a shove to ask you to keep his soul in your graces But if anything could it's the love If I could turn back the hands of time I'd rather squeeze the tool myself Can't let that kind of fate repeat G I hate me deeply, the possibility if I was to die this moment You wouldn't be at the golden gates to greet me The absence would mess up the vanity the rest of infinity If I had a personal hell, you could guess what's the penalty Shit, just the main thought of it all makes me teary eyed No matter how much I tell myself to look on the cheery side No matter how much I talk with God in deep discussion Cause you and I both knew the repercussions When you put your soul in the reapers clutches So why then, I'm still trying to figure as I'm crying this river [Hook 2X]