Embarrassed

[Hook] Push me to the bridge and I might jump off I can't take this anger anymore On my knees, on the floor All this pressure, I'm 'bout to explode Today is the day that I'll make them all pay Can you promise to me they'll have nothing to say Cause their words are like knives and they stabbin' my heart Always killing me, cutting me, ripping apart [Madrox] I'm watching trees fly by in the bus ride back from school I spent the day being harassed, now I'm heading home for some ridicule Sick of you calling me punk Don't know what she sees in him Outta work, always tired and drunk, but she believes in him And I'm more in the way than anything else The baggage of former marriage Managed to create hell in spite of itself And I'm on the verge of an influx And not giving a fuck And stabbin everyone in the face, at home, repeatedly, till the knife stuck And eyes, liking to see me get treated less then a loved one and did nothing while he beated, repeatedly, like a step son Sweaty palms are clinching the weapon No more, accepting the fact: I'm Embarassed, I deserve better I'm racking my red face in burgundy flesh Covered in gore, and the volume of violence, now is a hush Blood on the floor and the bodies lay, with stab wounds, fifty or more And the pain draws the knife to the handle, and straight to the core (of my family) [Hook] [Monoxide] I used to think it's all good, I'm just a kid And making fun of everything I do is just what everybody did And it'd seem, the older that I get, the harder they would hit And I'm feeling it every bit, like the bite, me wanna switch What a frightening way to live And I might be innocent, but I really doubt that shit I'd say enough's enough, no really, I've had enough But they keep keeping it up till finally I erupt Than everybodys families wondering what the fuck? This little fucking punk just murdered a bunch of what? The news said a couple of daughters, couple of sons And it was even done with unregistered gun They said that by the look on my face I was having fun But really I was just another one to succumb The fight, I mighta won, but I lost the greater battle Now I'm just another statistical victim to unravel [Hook] [Madrox] Spit anything, anything on me cause I'm inferior And the shadow of their ultimate greatness is so superior And my embarrassment is a token, a trophy They’re gluttonous bullies and their evil intentions They'll never know me I wouldn't be lonely if I only joined their harassment I'd rather say fuck 'em, get shove in my locker, my ass kicked I'm so sick of the wack shit, gotta gun in my backpack To lay you on your back, pull the trigger, then blackness [Monoxide] Some of y'all don't recognize my face But I promise today, when I'm done, that'll never be the case By the way, I really wanted to say thanks For making it so much easier for me to bring change And I don't give a fuck if you understand what I explain But I can't take another day of me having to keep living this way To most it's just words, regardless of what they say And they expect the consequence to be nothing more than the same I should have to contain all the hate and the pain Look at my name in vain and I gotta it take it all Like a grain of salt and it ain't my fault Probably fought back tears, but right now, right here I'm making this clear [Hook]