Kream

Cream It controls me, it my existence My purpose the reason I breathe The reason I believe and the path to succeed, it's all I need I woke up on the blindside Was blind to the bright lights All those nights staring out the terrace Embarrassed of my status Made sure it wouldn't stay the way it was I didn't do it just because I took risks took chances Played the game by ransom Cuz Opurtunitys are never handed Changing up like the guards Knew the finer things weren't a fassod Found a whole new way to rob Thinks clicking starting to succeed Plans got completed Continued to proceed Everything was breeding Coming to fruition Life started speeding Put into position All I had to to do was lay low But u know how the story goes Once u get Tht feeling its like blow Get addicted but never know No one knew not even the family If only they did how could they look at me I apologize to the ones I've left behind And to my son who commuted suicide, I cried Many tears, doing so many years If only I had such fears Listened to my peers If I just had swallowed my pride And lord knows I tried But u can see it my eyes that Hook And now I stand a new man New focus new plan I hope they understand But how can they forgive And forget How could they love and not have debt I'm saying everyone deserves a second chance But deep down I have no regrets And I know that seems harsh But u have to feel that taste That power I had did u see there faces? All the places I would go and the people I payed with See it wasn't really bout the money but more about the thrill And none of u can Judge till u get that feel Those are moments to kill for When life feels more than just knock outs Ur now on top of billboards Headed North and everything is south Ur paranoid but how can u stop now? Getting more salad than croutons An you've accepted ur role as the villain like lebron And I've seen the interviews And the news Even the one on the view With my son Andrew He said he could never forgive me No matter how I approached him And I hope he hears this Cuz that broke my heart in pieces Or it would have if I wasn't so Teflon Prisoner of my own bond Heart colder than Omarion's 2139 No where I hide So the times Is on my side The cycle continues The pain is controlling Won so many hands But left so many open Closed so many doors Not even the homes Stole so much Not even talking the loans Ill beat my self up but I can't turn back All i can do is face the facts