Fire Fade [Transcript]

TOVE LO: Everyone around is watching me. Or are they just looking when I look at them? I can't tell. My head and my ego are the same now. Everything is so beautiful, but so cold. Where did the fire go? I'm having a hard time, I think. I'm detached, I'm jaded, I'm getting fucking old, man. I'm an old bitch. Still wet, though! I miss being naive and excited. I think that's my natural state, actually, but someone told me long ago that you're way cooler if you don't care about anything, but still act like you've seen it all. Like everything is boring. Spoiled fuckers. MUSIC CUE: DON'T TALK ABOUT IT TOVE LO: You know, I'm romantic, but not the way you think. I don't want a family, I don't wanna get married or be someone's fucking wife. That's not what love is about. I wanna be with someone 'cause I want them, not 'cause I need them, you know? Ha! Bullshit, you needy bitch. TOVE LO: I'm gonna tell you a secret. When I was 14, I fell in love with my best friend's older brother, and he fell in love with me, too. Nobody knew about it. He was my first love. TOVE LO: He ended it after a while 'cause, I don't know, he was 19, his life was starting? I guess it was also my first heartbreak. I had no one to cry to, like, nobody. And my friend, she, she found out a few months later, and he just fully denied it. He said I was delusional, he called me a crazy stalker, all that bullshit. And you know, rumors started flying around, and people believed him. I honestly didn't care what they were saying or what they were thinking about me. I just, I was really hurt that, even to me, he wouldn't admit that he had loved me. I sound like a victim now, but it was really pretty exciting. MUSIC CUE: IMAGINARY FRIEND TOVE LO: My name is X baby, X baby, chicka chicka, boom boom boom. Charlie Chaplin, Chaplin Charlie, I love you if you love me. My name is X baby, X baby, chicka chicka, boom boom boom. Charlie Chaplin, Chaplin Charlie, I love you if you love me. My name is X baby, X baby, chicka chicka, boom boom boom. Charlie Chaplin, Chaplin Charlie, I love you if you love me MUSIC CUE: KEEP IT SIMPLE TOVE LO: What about you? What about you? What about you? What about you? What about you? When I fuck things up, when I fuck things up in front of camera flashes, what about you? When all I built up, when all I built up with sweat, blood, tears just crashes, what about you? What about you? No, what about you? All of these flashes. MUSIC CUE: FLASHES TOVE LO: ...the worst of your dreams. All the cards with all the love clichés, I wouldn't have it any other way. Shake your head, you don't believe this. Then what the fuck do you think love is? All the cards with all the love clichés, I wouldn't have it any other way. Shake your head, you don't believe this. Then what the fuck do you think love is? MUSIC CUE: WTF LOVE IS Trailer I Transcript TOVE LO: You bitch. You think you got it all figured out now, huh? Just staying alive but not living? Day in, day out, same thing, same routine. [Vocals from "True Disaster," Verse 2] Pretty girls, they like it fancy, but you don't keep it clean We get dirty and we go hard, some things we don't mean TOVE LO: We just know that somehow we do things, you and I. We're about that, that other thing. That hurts-so-good kind of thing, where I wanna rip your face off and fuck the shit out of you all at the same time. I don't wanna let that go, I... I want this. You play me just right. You give me all the feels. Everything. [Vocals from "True Disaster"] Da da, da da, da dum You keep playing 'em like Trailer II Transcript TOVE LO: When I fuck things up, when I fuck things up in front of camera flashes, what about you? When all I built up, when all I built up with sweat, blood, tears just crashes, what about you? What about you? No, what about you? All of these flashes. [Vocals from "Flashes"] When I fuck things up, yeah Trailer III Transcript TOVE LO: Everyone around is watching me. Or are they just looking when I look at them? I can't tell. Everything is so beautiful, but so cold. Where did the fire go? I'm detached, I'm jaded, I'm getting fucking old, man. I'm an old bitch. Still wet, though! I miss being naive and excited. Someone told me long ago that you're way cooler if you don't care about anything, but still act like you've seen it all. Like everything is boring. Spoiled fuckers. We're the worst.