Late Christmas

[Intro] I want love Show me love [Verse 1] But trust is a thing that very few niggas got Say you can't buy it but God dammit it can be bought Eight years when Maw Maw passed but I never brought Tears to the table Q and Dad wasn't having it Nas playing in the background repping for his city Too young to understand still sucking on a titty Seemed like a lot when you trying to play catch up Don't mess up, leather on my ass, I can't stop fucking up He only knew one way of showing me love Years later I'm trying to get that fucking feeling back Never had it, now I'm catching feelings bad What's Angelina nigga? You ain't shit when you ain't got no fucking Brad So why my old bitches don't show me love still? Real nigga just want to know how real love feel And I will kill for that first class airport pass Which doesn't that seem far when you alone laying low on the fucking barge Thinking about every eight and up that I ever seen nigga When ambition ate me up cus I want that dream nigga Seeing all these other youngins cum on all these fertile roses Made me buy that mask, breach that red wall Rob that bitch, and never call Well I been trying to talk about some realer lyrics Trying to talk to some realer women But she ain't talking bout my dick I ain't trying to hear it I ain't down to hear it? No But what am I fearing? What am I fearing? I need to know Loves not a word, love is a feeling I'm afraid to show Cus pain is the price that you'll pay, hate is the word you'll say So rather fuck Ashley today then go and fuck Leah and fade But remember me. Please remember me Cus I need a motive to keep living like this: Tricking smuts to sucking dick after catching flicks Then brag to my niggas. Ignorance is bliss But body count matters so I don't give a shit Why should I? No reason given So the only point in living before I fucking pull the trigger Is Fuck and Urinate Nigga, that's the meaning of F.U.N But ain't no fun in this lone world Devil telling me run Best advice is say please and listen Mother Theresa But won't see dad on knees, with no model why be a believer? No reason given. No reason given?! I need a fucking reason so that I can blame you for my wrongs if I fail So it's not my fault if I go to hell, when I die or go to jail you get that letter in the mail Please remember me, keep me living, giving to me by keep on sinning Charge may never drop but god dammit keep it pending [Verse 2] Don't believe any of the words I say, the lies I say Don't believe any of the friends you make, the lies they'll make Believe none of what you hear, half of what you see Because they'll deceive you and then you'll cry to me And tears fall down like snow in some trees And trees die because of winter autumn leaves Things fall the wrong way depressed and you'll call I'll be there when you need me for the small cost of prostitution Because pussy’s all I need Thinking I need you to show me love, I was stupid Waste another moment, I would lose it Fuck a destiny, it's my life and I'll choose it Uh, even Martin had a dream nigga I can't believe I had big dreams with you I can give a fuck if you like my music you gon hear these words nigga And you gon feel my pain, don't judge what's in my brain I'm damn near insane A slave to the fucking money damn I need a break Just one break goddamn that's all I need Just one break that's all I need Knowing the blessing of my presence is a fucking present But I'm just living in the present presenting me I'm present I heard love last forever well I'll test it... I almost tested