Falling Down

[Intro] I can see how broken you are. How defeated. You can't win and you know it because inside you're already dead [Verse 1] These days I see my life through windows of frustration For every obstacle my life is full I lose patience My situation inundated with no-win scenarios As circumstances turn to shit after seemingly made of gold My positive outlook is transformed to negative I’m grasping at the fantasy to live a life I’ll never live Maybe what I lack’s a commitment that I have yet to give Slipping in the darkness of what seems an eternal eclipse So I turn and I twist and search for what doesn’t exist Some piece of contentment instead all I get is this shit From where I am to where I need to go today Seems to be measured in distances that’s many more light years away Nothing I can do to reach with any tool I use No matter what I choose the outcome is that I always lose I can’t even pretend that this shit isn’t stressing me The heart of it I’m losing confidence and thinking less of me [Chorus] I hold my head up high for the people surrounding me And that's down with me I take steps not to trip, but they don't see that I'm falling down I'm falling down I'm falling down yo I keep a smile on my face for my friends and my family To hide the insanity I stay discreet cause I don't want them to peep That I'm falling down I'm falling down I am falling down [Verse 2] My limited options have got me feeling boxed in As best laid plans and dreams are headed where the stop ends How do I smile when everything has died inside Although I can’t reveal the struggle to the family and so I hide Keep them distracted with this mask of overconfidence Conceal the way I feel which in reality’s incompetent And be the shoulder that everyone else can cry on While life continues with its game and really starts to pile on Health issues arise... many loved ones have died Many times have I tried to shrug it and take it in stride As all the bonds I’ve made slowly start to slip away When those that’s closest to me start to notice I don’t look the same It’s kind of twisted feeling so damn pessimistic Pretending I’m not worried when really my minds drifted To everybody else these songs are only music But to me their everything my only hope I gotta use it [Chorus x 1] [Verse 3] This is my outlet when everything about me spins The side I hide from friends concealed behind a smile or grin The artistry that’s buried deep inside the heart of me Influenced by those muses of the struggle that nobody sees My last bastion of hope... fortress of solitude A universe of ideas expressed and often misconstrued Without this way to vent I just don’t know what I would do I’d probably explode from all the rage in fact I know it’s true Is this another dead end another try that fails Another disappointment story stacked upon a pile of tales? How do I even the scales and produce a victory When lessons from history teach those thoughts are contradictory Sometimes I micromanage every disadvantage In an attempt to lessen the load of all of this baggage The pressure builds and builds until it reach the roof again The only relief is when I release it with this pad and pen [Chorus x 1] [Outro] I'm falling down and I can't get up Sometimes it feels like I'm not man enough I do my best but I still feel damned as fuck At the end of the day man I can't give up I've fallen down and I can't get up Sometimes it feels like I'm not man enough I do my best but I still feel damned as fuck At the end of the day yo I can't give up