It's Hard

Sitting listening to the troubles of a tormented artist My mind and my body I ain't sure who worked the hardest My body been over flowing with emotions for years My mind say the only way to get it out is my tears So I seat and I cry Every night in my room That's why I plan to die so every night in my tomb Got so much pain in my heart I don't know where to start I take it from the beginning Hold up Born in Mississippi August Twenty-Second Uno Nueve Ocho Siete Showered with love, mommas first kid So all the hammy downs around I got first dibs Was raised right Treat em how you wanna be treated That's good advice but give it to them kids they need it Started a team with my niggas and decided to lead it Now just one win to make up for the times I got defeated I do this shit from that bottomless pit I call my gut Ain't no more love in this world for a girl It's all a nut They Fucking for nothing and wonder why we call em sluts God take me back to when they slapped you for touching they butt That's how my old soul Don't feel like I belong Doing shit on my own They don't tell this guy be strong Big city, all alone Trying to make my ends meet Shit is wicked in this house None of my friends speak I act like I don't feel nothing, really I do I'm sensitive as hell man No really, it's true I got no problem with getting quiet I get quiet too When you act you don't want me around what am I to do? See, when I get mad I don't take it out on you At least I hope I don't If I do I'm sorry for Worked hard on that card Meant every word I wrote No thanks no appreciated not a word spoke Never do that again Yeah that was dumb Maybe it's for the best I'm slowly going numb Guess that's the way to be The worlds changing me but my right hand is the letter after a b c That ain't the half of it You going to love this In a relationship, straight loveless I told my girl I meet celebrities she act a fool I tell her I'm close to my dreams and she just say 'cool' What the fuck man I want affection A million miles and I'm worry about who she sexing I help her out in every way you could imagine But now when I'm talking to her she act like I be nagging What the fuck is up Truth is deep down I feel like I'm a leave her She did me wrong so that was harder for me to believer her But she don't understand right now I really need her She tell me she love me every day and I be a diva Say go baby keep pushing I'm riding with ya I need to hear your voice Girl all I got is pictures I'm tatting scriptures on my arms to keep the lord with me Steady thinking about shorty that jersey shore with me Spit my heart out These labels should be flowing me Instead I'm getting the feeling like they bored with me My head high but not my nose Pray for everyone in my life but not my foes Dig it I painted this Picasso like I'm so strong Indeed I am but at this point I'm so gone Honestly my mental ain't fit to be around no pistol Like I wanted my clause to be always aiming at my temple I'm suicidal again Dear lord help me But I get confident fans telling me that they felt me My just can't understand it The only person who even call to check up on me is my nigga Landis Damn it's hard