So Many Tears (Thugs Cry Too)

When I was younger, in 5, 6 and 7 years my Mom used to tell me that one day she will die I was a little kid, and the only one who from his birth knew that one day everybody will be dead, and I cried I was a little kid, and that was for me the biggest kick, I was very sick, I was so vulnerable, no truth to seek, I was with open heart and soul, with the heart that was so big Now I'm grew, and even if it's so few years I remember every, as a child, my tears It was very crazy years, and that crazy day in 6 years when my Mom asked "will I bury her" Like stay flow, say words to slay slow, I thought she's talking about lay low And I told that "never", I didn't want to kill Maybe it is hurt, but I thought about killing, and pain I felt and feel Everything that touched to death, I screamed 'no' Everyday of my childhood was so Every morning with crazy beats of heart That maybe today my mother can't to wake up Every day near with her, every evening with her, so some ones thought that I'm a sissy boy But for me death was very bad thing and maybe even now, but it is not so actual, I didn't want a toy All I wanted a better life of my Mom, thought if she'll die I will kill myself Cuz the biggest drama was that all my life I lived with mama with no dad, and there was not somewhere help If I'd lost her So many, so many tears But now I have no fear Though I walk through the valley of death I shed so many tears if I should die before I wake My pulse rushin, send my pulse into insanity Shout at my cousin now we bustin if they yo' family The coppers wanna see me buried, I ain't worried And it's maybe around 10 years nothing can make me nervous Nothing have a meaning, and everyday what I'm seeing It's like I'm without feelings, I don't need millions I would never gave a dollar for the life I have a goal to strive, and better I've showed you my skills and gave that dollar for the mic But no one give a chance, the world is bug Where is the love? Never quit my ambition to thug Ain't shed a tear since the old school years of elementary The last time it was maybe at the age of 8, that was the years I hate But still homey keep it real, how does it feel To lose your life, over somethin that you did as a kid? And didn't get the things you need No merciless to me, and no apologize to yours You don't even know what is a drama, but when it rains it pours Where's the end of my misery? Is there a close? I suppose that's why I murder my foes! I was like a psycho, from the childhood I thought only about death And I was in one step of decease, because of my bad health, and we had no and have no wealth (Well) I didn't ever have a cry, but in my crazy childhood I cried Sometimes I think better in 4 I've died I saw so many dies, no, it's not lies But never cried for it, sometimes suicide I want it But there's no something bad in tears, everyone at least once in the life cryin' When something goes not for its line No rest, no rest in it, no rest in the world, is it just destiny? Our destinies, they are so closed to each other like a lot of families Sometimes I just want to die Cuz sometimes even thugs cry!