I GOT THE FEAR

You could hear every cigarette she ever smoked when she spoke I carried that "NO" that she gave me in the palm of my hand I put it in my notebook than ripped it out and put it in the garbage can She said you're either on it or you haven't tried it It's a six second high and you'll do anything to get back to the pilot Forget a diet, forget exercise and a meal Lose 10 pounds in 10 minutes with a needle Money, fame, heroin, if god made anything better he kept it to himself Take away 6 problems for 6 six seconds 6 times a day with the devils help He had a goof ball trance and a codeine dance He was on his belts last loop, a skeleton with pants She liked to tie his tourniquet, you could call it romance Junk sick morning, cough syrup for breakfast She used to take paper clips and Prozac pills and make a necklace He waited half a cigarette then said "what do you want from me? I don't have anything plus I'm running out of veins and money The only thing he owned was a loose tooth and a kidney stone He didn't have a home just a earthbound ghost and a bag of bones So he boiled that brown water and salivated for that feeling As bed bugs and scorpions rained down from the ceiling She said I GOT THE FEAR, I got the fear She ran to the bathroom and saw a ghost in the mirror He said I GOT THE FEAR, I got the fear He ran to bathroom and saw an old man in the mirror She said during withdrawal everything is blue He said during a fix everything is new Control only leads to more control kind of like heroin No more clothes there only apparel is skin They say they wanna quit but without methadone they won't Veins come back but brain cells don't He'd trade those 6 seconds of winning for 23 hours of losing She said selling is more of a habit than using Do not sell the product to the consumer, sell the consumer to the product Make the customer cut down the trees than sell them the sawdust Diamonds are tears, rubies are blood They say gold is in the river if you'll pan through the mud His veins are full of galloping horses His wife's at home she wants to divorce him Cause out of syringes thought he could build a fortress Toothless old women face and cancelled eyes but he's gorgeous Stigmata from his needle wounds, he's crucified on two tourniquets God'll save em if the ambulance comes and the gurneys are quick She said I have a cure for apathy and no body cares He listens for the sirens and no bodies there She said I GOT THE FEAR, I got the fear She ran to the bathroom and saw a ghost in the mirror He said I GOT THE FEAR, I got the fear He ran to bathroom and saw a ghost in the mirror Coke bugs, she's got the horror Oh Holy Spirit won't you help me pray for her Magdalene forgives, mother Mary is crying Kidney stone the size of the hope diamond Sometimes they use coke to cope The hands clean the hands but what cleans the soap I don't know but I think it's called hope Pack up the junk and kick the dope You'll get clean this lifetime or the next Don't worry though we all pass the test