Dead Rocking Horse

[Time: Verse 1] Day one was annoying, so was number 2 One week later the mirrors saying, what are you going to do? I never answered, I just broke it Baboon on my back, i grabbed it and choked it I never provoked it, the past can time travel I never dealt with it, that's why I unraveled Stayed silent around my friends, especially my family Blamed it on myself so it's fuck you and damn me I cussed it under a rug I thought it would help me I dismissed the filthy and let the past melt me That rocking horse turned into a Pegasus and flew away So did my childhood, soon I'll be cold and grey Cremated by closed ears, instead of love he chose fear Clothed in gossip, guilt and beer I thought those pills had a side effect of forgive and forget I see a pile of orange bottles but don't worry I'll quit Percocet in my stomach, razor blade in my liver I brushed my shoulders off into the Ganges river Temporary relief is better then no relief But the past can be a bitch she can sneak into your sleep Day dreams or day mares I call em day scares And thanks to all my teachers for the good day care Music's my escape, imagination is my Lucy I'm already gone so you don't have to lose me [Time: Chorus] Bad things happen to children along with adults They say tell me what's wrong it won't be difficult They say that's not true now wash your mouth with soap Do you want to live or die I think I'm doing both [Time: Verse 2} I sold Freud some coke he said I told you so He said it's about sex I said it's about blow They say it's about that money till you get that fame But if you don't have the money then it's all the same That baby rattle turned into a microphone And that apartment turned into a psycho's home That last verse was a prayer for both you and me This verse might just be my fucking eulogy I never walked through the valley of the shadow of death I set up camp there and for 24 years and slept I never wept until I was 19 My tears ran back up my eyes, reality is frightening Everyone's life sucks, so its selfish to let your eyes erupt Denial was my crutch, now I'm legless as fuck I made it to 25 I guess you can call it luck The past can be molasses it can super glue you stuck But I broke free and ran towards sanity Music is interpretation of reality that's why I use profanity Remembering is dismembering am I in the stars yet? The only way to reboot the brain is an injury or car wreck I don't want either, therapist invisible Without forgiveness your whole life is miserable I broke my time machine and traded my Delorian My inner child's a boy again, I relate to joy again PSA's used to tell me what to do But I got knowledge of self from everything i been thru Music's my escape, imagination is my Lucy I'm already gone so you don't have to lose me [Time: Chorus] Bad things happen to children along with adults They say tell me what's wrong it won't be difficult They say that's not true now wash your mouth with soap Do you want to live or die I think I'm doing both