Valium

They told me drunk words are sober thoughts, I’m staring at an empty bottle I’ve been talking to my brother questioning everything that I know The scratches on the vinyl match the rhythm of the rain drops But when the record’s spinning is the only time the pain stops And if my heartbeat is a metronome Then I’m that white nerd who left his only stepping shoes at home There’s never kisses for the wallflower They told us never fear, still we all cower Behind these worthless checks and percocets Listening to my parents asking if I’m fucking working yet Are you? I appreciate the roof But it’s time your failed investment fixed its wings and flew the coop So I pop another pill, like it’s the only thing that’s real ‘cause nothing will ever hurt me if nothing’s all that I feel I got a couple problems, I solve them with the alcohol I figure if I’m high enough, someday I’ll be bound to fall I could have died, I’m such a fool All the Valium in the world couldn’t keep me cool I copped them and I popped them There’s no stoppin And I’m falling down I could have died, I’m such a fool Still reaching for the bottle when I think of you Showed her and I told her How she struck me But I’m fucked up now They told me drunk words are sober thoughts, I’m about to buy another bottle Just so I can figure out why I’m terrified of tomorrow Sorrow, we’re only as old as the day our heart breaks So I’m a sixteen year old, obsessing over my mistakes It’s like the pain is the only thing that’s real So I fuck up every time just to prove that I can feel But feelings fade away, skies turn to grey, and we all lose today Lost my girl, another girl, so tell me how to make you stay But she’ll leave just like the rest of them That’s why I take my time when I’m blessed to be undressing them Because a second ain’t a century I need more than that, so Meredith, what aren’t you telling me? I guess I’ll just get back to drinking While I write another song, just wondering what she’s thinking Pop another pill, I’ll be lucky if I overdose I know I don’t mean it, so I’ll take enough to get me close