Light

Another thought of suicide City living’s always do or die Chasing this fame has me stressing out Visions of me at 25 on my mother’s couch Success is a necessity Doubts follow me incessantly, won’t let me breathe And oxygen is not a gift It’s a fucking fact so tell me why I’m stressing it Why am I drinking all this liquor like I’m tryna kill my liver And why I am I so afraid to just be happy when I’m with her Love is not a battle, it’s a feeling that we all share But heartbreak is a war and I’m caught up in the crosshairs I’ve ruined everything that I’ve ever loved And if you’re wondering if I’ve considered giving up Of course, I don’t see why I wouldn’t Finger on the trigger, tell my why I shouldn’t When I look up to the sky, I never stare for long ‘cause when I wish that’s where I was, I wonder if I’m wrong It’s been too hard living but lord knows I’m scared to die And no matter how I try to leave it, I keep chasing the light Maybe I’m just lonely Jersey child, I was born to run Who would miss little old me? But if I do, then what’s done is done I got a couple things to smile for Girl, I swear you’re not the only one I'mma live to see a world tour And I ain’t leaving til I have my son When I look up to the sky, I never stare for long ‘cause when I wish that’s where I was, I wonder if I’m wrong It’s been too hard living but lord knows I’m scared to die And no matter how I try to leave it, I keep chasing the light I’ve seen the seasons change plenty times Sunrise, sunset and the daily grind And I ain’t quite an existentialist But maybe I could find a couple reasons for me not to quit Love is everything, I won’t forget it Life is nothing unless you choose to live it And maybe I can do it standing on the edge Take a breath and truly live right over the ledge