It's Not Getting Any Good

While i'm / working to afford to have fun with you i'm distracted To / stillness by the thinking of you from beach to top mountains Paula this / indistinguished suburb grinds my sleep teeth to ruin & powder You know it to be / true you heard it held me woke me close whispered how it'll Be soon you said / worry baby sleepy head Cut back to / me young and unpressured in contrast to aunts and to uncles 8 & 10 / older at the cusp of adulthood away walk from play time I knew then of / those days gold status how they'd look back to fix their hearts worn And yet here i am write of when i had so many they were of no value when Laid unnumbered end to end / but it's not getting any good That's a bandage / that we've been using Best of a decade / not while we're here in secaucus bound Let's stop pretending / in never endings Another decade / or until we're out of the hope you found Let's abandon / this house to camden Messed up a decade / let's get away from these home and towns Cause something's missing / we hide by kissing Rest up a decade / we'll need our strength to escape this town Can't tell myself from hopes i've drowned / can't tear myself from this safety town Can't tell each other from stupid clowns