The Devil In My Bloodstream

(Verse 1) We wiped out all the Buffalo Around the turn of the last century And so it's factories and sawgrass Wheat fields and asphalt laid in front of me The Midwest feels like a hollow place That we filled with love and industry And we're staring at the frozen ground in Goodwill suits Silent as the pastor reads the eulogy Well I wanted to see just a little bit of everything Let me be (Chorus) Two blackbirds on a highway sign Are laughing at me at four in the morning They played the war drum out of time So I'm not sure where I've been marching I wanna be strong, but it's not easy anymore I'm hoping I'm wrong (Verse 2) It's sixteen hours straight to home From the heart of North Missouri And so I searched through my great-grandpop's memoirs For the devil in my bloodstream Depression grabbed his throat And choked the life out of him slowly I've got the same blood coursing through my veins And it'll come for me eventually (Verse 3) I bet I'd be a fucking coward I bet I'd never have the guts for war Cause I can't spend another month away from here These frantic rest stop phone calls don't get answered anymore But I, I wanted to know if I could please come home So let me know (Chorus) (Bridge) I know how it feels to be At war with a world That never loved me (Chorus) (Outro) I wanna be strong I wanna be strong, but it's not easy anymore