Opening Up [850 Words]

[Intro: Call Me - Shinedown] Wrap me in a bolt of lightning Send me on my way still smiling Maybe that's the way I should go Straight into the mouth of the unknown Left the spare key on the table Never really thought I'd be able to say I merely visit on the weekend I lost my whole life and a dear friend I've said it so many times I would change my ways No, never mind God knows I've tried Call me a sinner, call me a saint Tell me it's over, I'll still love you the same Call me your favorite, call me the worst Tell me it's over, I don't want you to hurt It's all that I can say, so I'll be on my way [Verse 1: The Act] I'm just another dude With family issues And a bad attitude I'm stumbling right through Just about to amount to The only thing my father taught me how to Kick back with a six pack of brews Make that two Drink away my problems While my son's and daughter's Blood bonds are rottin' Disintegrating to dust Dryer than that vodka Drain that bottle to the bottom Cause ya troubles don't mean shit Cause I am in my drunken bliss Age 3, 4, 5, 6 To sixteen A sinking vessel Is about to be a sunken ship Yeah, I'm the Titanic But that alcoholic problem is my iceberg, no ice pick And I'm losing my vice grip About to slip Thanks for givin' me an image Of who I don't wanna be Some kind of figurine to picture Captain Vicodin Yeah, loved my action figures Hapless heroes Probably cause I lacked it, zero [Hook: Call Me - Shinedown] Call me a sinner, call me a saint Tell me it's over, I'll still love you the same Call me your favorite, call me the worst Tell me it's over, I don't want you to hurt It's all that I can say, so I'll be on my way [Bridge: The Act] That's what I was exposed to Is that what I'm gonna be? What I'm gonna grow to, go do? What am I supposed to do? [Verse 2: The Act] I can see it happening I fought the good fight I'm no Rocky, gotta be Ali Now I see the spots and light Like a deer, just stare, in fright But I'm about to fall over Down a flight of stairs Every day that I grow older These thousand pound boulders Strapped to my shoulders To much to keep a hold of And it's crushing the last bit Of these good things I keep holed up Deep enough To be untouched I've got the rot, its spreadin' no stop Locomotive, full speed ahead Not a moment of slow motion To catch my breath As that kid is swallowed whole Into the ocean I'm at my coldest depth, emotionless So distant and scopeless See no horizon, and I'm ropeless No guidance, just ghost heads Talkin' at me 'Piece of shit. Look at you You're worthless Stay in and hang in the attic, fuck it, follow the family path set Become the addict, shoot up and stop giving a fuck What's stopping you now? Huh?" I'm tryin' to figure it out! [Hook: Call Me - Shinedown] I finally put it all together But nothing really lasts forever I had to make a choice that was not mine I had to say goodbye for the last time [Verse 3: The Act] Turn the music real loud And drown out the voices Of disjointed, disembodied, pointless Apparitions beggin' for me to listen again Except they're different now The faces have changed To caricatures of my friends The few that I have left But it's too late Nothing they say makes sense Cause I've got an electric fence Yeah, that's a good defence You go ahead, ignore the world Spiral out of control Once a chemical change occurs That's it. You're burned Burned out Can't un-boil So much potential Robbed. Nonsensical Toil and trouble Dabble with the witch's spell No, no fairy tale I mean the chemists brew Its destined To come true What a fool to try to Undue these Scars and blemishes Cause they add up, when you're fightin' in the trenches Gonna die and be buried here An open grave, no casket A happy endin'? No. Don't ask it Just a mass death pit Write until my fingers bleed And fingernails split And the ink runs dry Then pen it in blood Mixed with tears I cried What do I need? A fuckin' miracle Just to heal Stuck spinning On that wheel of misfortune Fuck it, I'm grinning Madness is winning Congratulations I am actually fuckin' breakin Thought I was unbreakable Unshakable, no, just stupid The same as anybody else Just stubborn and clueless No wonder I can't love I have a callused fist sized tumor Just barely pumpin' enough of My stupid humour To keep me movin' But when you give up Your body catches on to it So I can pass easily Glad I could put it on an easle The needle needs me, needlessly Ha, yeah, I'm the goofy funny guy Because I'm hidin' the darkness I keep locked inside Pandora's box I unlocked it Run run running Never far enough to be out of sight So to the people I've hurt, you wonder why? I'm just another bad guy That's what happens when you're living in a lie So accustomed and attuned And it nearly became a fact Close to the truth But I am just an actor Permanently living in The Act [Hook/Bridge: Call Me - Shinedown] I finally put it all together But nothing really lasts forever I had to make a choice that was not mine I had to say goodbye for the last time I kept my whole life in suitcase Never really stayed in one place Maybe that's the way it should be You know I've led my life like a gypsy I've said it so many times I would change my ways No, never mind God knows I've tried I finally put it all together But nothing really lasts forever I had to make a choice that was not mine I had to say goodbye for the last time I kept my whole life in suitcase Never really stayed in one place Maybe that's the way it should be You know I've led my life like a gypsy I've said it so many times I would change my ways No, never mind God knows I've tried [Verse 5: The Act] Just another dude With family issues And a bad attitude Stumbling right through Just about to amount to The only thing my father taught me how to Kick back with a six pack of brews Make that two Drink away my problems My father's not the only one that's got 'em His mother is off her rocker His step father is somethin' that's always bothered him My mother hit rock bottom But she rose up found God and blossomed Maybe I can do that too Takes these woes and box 'em up I've seen flowers sprout up from the ground Beneath the concrete, between the cracks Left from trampling feet Proof that life refuses to be beat Breakin' barriers just to taste the sunlight I am just another dude With family issues And a positive attitude Walking right through About to amount to What I learned from all those people around me Something different Something new Because I'm keepin' my head up So I can get the best view Now that got this off of my chest It's time to bury it underneath In a rose petal grave Not forgotten, but saved Because I remember the pain But never have to feel it again Never again