Memoir: Entry II/Memory Lane

[Verse 1] This is a memoir I think I'm on the second page And yesterday Took a trip down some memory lanes It's so insane I went to Hayes Can't keep a pace And man I'm just all over the place But I don't care My minds so scattered I'm just glad it hasn't shattered already Man what did they tell me Sticking to this music shit is never gonna fail me And they helped me, picked me back up when I was feeling down I felt the blues Man I remember... Back against the wall, there was no one that I could call I heard it all I'll be there for you anytime You wasn't there for any time And every time I tried to take the knife into my chest... That's too much to confess I'm a mess But I been blessed with this rapping shit Yeah, I guess This shits a test You gotta flex with your mind You stay forgetting the times Just take a trip down memory lane and hope the story's the same And if it ain't then oh well, they say everything change [Part II/Memory Lane] I took a trip down memory lane just today actually It was a nice experience I remember back when I was 17 and I would think "man, when I'm famous I definitely gotta mention this in my 'when I was 17' episode." I had made this song called "The Help" for my first album What actually motivated it was that I wanted to do this tour thing... My mom said no It destroyed me Like to the point that I just didn't want to make music anymore I was done And I remember this one time... I was so happy My mom had just gotten married Just moved into a new house And I mean an actual house It wasn't big but it was comfy I miss that place on Hayes Avenue Going to a new school It was nice And then... That night... I don't wanna get into much detail... But it lead to a divorce New city New school Ugh Back to happy thoughts I remember meeting my dad for the first time Well the first time that I would actually remember in life It was May 2011 I was in school and I got called down to the office Specifically it was my Algebra II class I knew I wasn't in trouble so naturally I was pretty confused I get to the office and I see my mom We get to talking and then this guy walks in My father It didn't take very long for him to be in tears looking at what I would assume was a mirror image of him at that age I didn't cry... At least while I was in the office I didn't know what to think I won't lie I was really happy about it though But I guess that's the reason I began to hurt so much once the broken promises followed We don't talk anymore... Maybe one day... One day when I can actually forgive him and mean it Ugh I need more happy thoughts I remember Halloween one year It was while my mom was still married We did a scavenger hunt in my basement It was all Ronnies idea Definitely my favorite Halloween ever I'll never forget it Back to 2011... My great grandmother died... So I made her a promise that I would never give up with her watching over me I'm keeping it Another important promise in my life My tenth birthday I promised that when I have kids I'll always be there for them, and be the father I never got to have myself There's that memoir