How You Want It

-Verse 1- Death is weighing on my shoulders, I got life in my hand At times I touch the sky and its alright when I land I been survived the battle what's the point in fighting a man I swear I been through more than what I can withstand Road to riches and fame, I'm steady crowded by the mist But I can walk a thousand miles as long as the shoe fits Surrounding myself with thoughts of trying to call it quits I'm balling like I'm the shit, and its all cause I got a hit And the talking it never ends, but as long as I can pretend That I got the world in my hand, they'll never know what's the plan But I'm suffering once again, and I lose my attention span If this all pays off, then my shows they will attend But I can't comprehend, the reason I see my own songs as a threat When did my dream become a nightmare that I'd struggle to forget Well damn it I can't recall, but I'm frozen inside these walls No more running towards the light as I'm watching the darkness fall -Hook- Tell me how you want it Tell me that you with it Tell me how you want it And that's the way you'll get it Aw yeah Tell me how you want it Tell me that you with it Tell me how you want it And that's the way you'll get it Aw yeah -Verse 2- I need a way of proving them wrong I built the fire up just so it could move in a song The first moment I touched a pen it started cruising along I don't get it is this the type of life that I'm meant for Careless in the beginning, now what I fight for What I spent my life doing, attempt to take to the top Pretending not to care whether I make it or not But its all lies, I do care and I can't hide it There's a demon locked away honestly I can't fight it Missing out on excitement, silver light, can't find it I hope they follow on with the brilliant theory that I'll provide em When my album drop I'm hoping the lyrics just get recited So they can know all that I've been through, know none of this is simple The way that they tend see it, I'm killing these instrumentals Hoping I become a symbol instead of as worthless as a thimble Released so many songs this past year so I could earn up my credentials But tell me if its worth it, just tell me if its worth it Just build my confidence so I know what I do it perfect I said tell me if its worth it, just tell me if its worth it Tell me if I got a chance or is what I write just worthless -Hook- Tell me how you want it Tell me that you with it Tell me how you want it And that's the way you'll get it Aw yeah Tell me how you want it Tell me that you with it Tell me how you want it And that's the way you'll get it Aw yeah -Verse 3- Afflicted to live a curse, but I can't say this is the first With a dead beat father who only made the pain feel worse Who am I to blame him, maybe I should blame myself I was told more than once I shouldn't but it can't be helped I'm just tryna give you me, not a duplicate copy The originals where its at, but still my memories haunt me And taunt me, to do something that I'll just regret But he's breaking every promise, did he think twice yet Maybe he didn't, so where's my mirror on the wall The one that I can go to whenever I start to ball I can't take a step forward until I learn to crawl Tryna move on but I just can't so I just learned to fall Damn, how can it all still get to me Putting myself in misery as I think of my history How can it all still get to me Putting myself in misery as I think of my history