Different State Of Mind

[Verse 1] Can somebody tell me where the hell I went wrong, was it last year Done with the crying so I'm drying up my last tear Just done with it all, I just can't get it right I'm not the type to fight a battle that's an uphill flight Sleep late, I'm up early though Do what I can to show these people I deserve it though Man I swear, they just don't want me no more Even if they did before I'll just keep doing my thing It ain't nothing new And if it is I hope they take offense Can't write my wrongs entirely, scrap them as late regrets I been through the ring a couple times, through shit I can't forget Lately I'm sick and really I just feel the need that I just gotta come home [Hook] I just wanna know if I'm feeling ok If I'mma make it today What if they blocking my way But I know There's no one here That's stopping me now Best believe I'mma make it through it all [Verse 2] Me and the 5 Star crew, man we tryna live Talking to Nick almost everyday cause he got some ideas If we leave the queen, a better shot is possible And I'm just at that spot thinking that anything is optional Squashed a few beefs, with the same cat Well I just rapped and he just ain't have much to say back I guess that's how it goes, they talking but won't trade blows They think its tag like I won't hit em at the safe post I know I said once, that I would never change Thinking again I never did, just had to learn a few things But aye its all good, even when it feels strange And I'll remain the same even after the deal has came Don't you see, I'm just doing me Not quoting myself, since my titles becoming routine Fake friends hide in the open, think they blended with real Missing the feel of a substance that I ain't needing forreal My biggest fear is dying before I'm truly happy But that day will never come when I break from those who attack me Its like a living a mother fucking fairy tale Focused on ahead not haters that is in back of me Yeah, I'm spilling it all And when I make it, best believe that I'm living to ball People telling me I'm really bouta kill em all But the city been just so good to me forreal and I just wanna stay home [Hook] I just wanna know if I'm feeling ok If I'mma make it today What if they blocking my way But I know There's no one here That's stopping me now Best believe I'mma make it through it all [Verse 3] Old girlfriends turning into bitches Is it me or was there something missing in the pictures Prolly that guy on the side that she was busy kissing Too bad I missed it or I'd actually manage to give descriptions I swear, its nothing new, these girls, they come, they go Need my Aaliyah, a woman that's down to rock the boat If I could do it again, I prolly wouldn't I know I prolly shouldn't And all the chances I gave, I shouldve overlooked them Living my life is music to my ears And that's what I'll become a slave to, not fame when it appears Dreaming of late nights and making it home when sun rises And taking flights all over the world with no surprises Feel my demise is, never gonna come The track I'm on is one I never wanna wander from Getting hate from those that's living in my own city Like I ain't constant with repping the one I'm coming from Its strange, I always listen when they speak of hope And taking notes tryna improve and get my mind afloat Some get a taste and put it to waste Just know that when I get my plate I'm slated for a second date Never getting full of the fame like its my only diet This ain't a job, its what I'm loving, maybe you should try it I'm 5 Star to the death, man my team is flying Just listen to the shit we saying, you playing it and its sounding like home [Hook] I just wanna know if I'm feeling ok If I'mma make it today What if they blocking my way But I know There's no one here That's stopping me now Best believe I'mma make it through it all