Relief Next To Me

[Verse] I miss you now I guess like I should have missed you then My body moves Like curtains waving in and out of wind In and out of windows I can't untangle, I can't untangle What I feel and what would matter most I can't close an eye Can't close an eyelid And now there's just no point In reaching out for me In the dark I'm just no good at giving relief In the dark It won't be easy to find relief And I'm not proud That nothing will seem easy about me But I promise this I won't go my whole life Telling you I don't need But I promise this I won't go my whole life Telling you I don't need I'll tell you now I guess like I should have told you then The thunder moves Like damn drawers slamming in my frame Slamming in my framework I can't untangle, I can't untangle What I know and what should matter most I can't close an eye Can't close an eyelid And now there's just no point In reaching out for you In the dark I'm just no good at giving relief In the dark It won't be easy to find relief And I'm not proud That nothing will seem easy about me But I promise this I won't go my whole life Telling you I don't need