My Own Hell

[Intro 1 (Taken from Freaky)] I really don't have to tell you much about this one because the song is Like the song is like self-explanatory. You know what I mean? It's Called My Own Hell. Story about me, and Midwestside, and Hogstyle Records, and people around me, and my wife, and stuff like that. Pretty Personal. Real ruff copy. It's the only one we got. You know what I Mean? I think y'all really love the story. People are nosey and want to Know about my life so check this out; this is called My Own Hell Produced by Don Juan [Intro 2] Nigga, my life is straight conflict When all I want to do is kick it hard and make bomb shit Every perimeter I enter is infested with a sinner Seems like I'm losing and never coming out the winner Shit, I'm the only one kicking it, everyone else plotting and scheming But yet they never listen when I say I'm a little piece of love and a pit full of demons [Verse 1] Midwestside was record company comprised of all friends Who grew up together and shared ends Nobody stepped on nobody's toes Diamond was executive producer, Juan had beats I had flows Scooby and Txx Will did promotion Got it where Mitch Bade was the shit and got Kansas City open Juan got that shit to Quincy Jones through a chick named Mona Three days later Q called us back and it was on Q told us to wait on putting the record out indy The record company will make it to where we'll have plenty So we waited. Should we put this out? We debated But working with Quincy we were elated So now we on the road to L.A. and it was live Till we got to Quincy's and Diamond told Scooby and them to sit outside That's when the tension started to build Niggas started feeling unappreciated and then shit got real! '97 Quincy called back for me and Juan I told my Rogue Dog niggas just to remain calm I'm bout to make it so we can bling. Get us nice things And then Don Juan said, "let's mash for our dreams nigga." Scooby didn't like the way he spent his money on promos T-shirts and money to pay Brain for logos He thought he wasn't appreciated, Midwestside depreciated Gone for the summer and everybody waited Bakarii didn't like the fact he was down with Mitch Bade He felt that he should be the next nigga to get paid Txx Will got tired of being lectured On distribution so the anted up and started Hogstyle Records My niggas wanted me to ride Hell yeah I'm down, Tecca Nina's on both sides Hogstyle's like "Fuck 'em, cuz they didn't believe in 57 Midwestside's the same, but the love, I'm trynna find my way to heaven [Hook] Yo... This is my own hell nigga, this is my own hell Just trynna make my records sell Off in my own hell nigga, this is my own hell [Verse 2] We want to Cali to hook with QD3 They wanted the superstar to be me Kicked it with big Q off in the wild wild west they signed me to Qwest Didn't know I was in for some more Perspective mess Qwest fighting Midwestside over a single All the way from the love angel to Chris Cringle CEO of Midwestside fighting QD over my budget QD fighting Qwest cuz he never loved it Warner Bros. fighting back and forth with my artists Cuz the bitch who's handling money is retarded Qwest don't like Midwestside, QD3 don't like Qwest And I'm sitting in the middle depressed Warner Bros send me four Gs a month I'm kickin it at parties. Liquor, weed, and cunts When everybody's fussing and fighting I'm suffering peacefully like novacaine That's because I didn't know the game Midwestside, Juan, and QD3 Q-W-E-S-T fighting all over me Sway and Tech fighting Q over a check he didn't pay But I suffer (Man I suffer) Yeah, I suffer at the end of the day [Hook] Yo... This is my own hell nigga, this is my own hell Just trynna make my records sell Off in my own hell nigga, this is my own hell [Verse 3] My female friends started not to like my woman When they found my marriage was comin My wife didn't like my friends from the get go She say them bitches ain't nothing but fucking famous rapper niggas for the grip hoes Wifey don't like me hanging out with E and Beans Cuz when we be seeing E and Beans wifey be seeing things Beans don't like Sheryl cuz Sheryl fine a hell And Beans things Sheryl will take the dick to show and tell Sheryl don't like Beans cuz Beans rude She wish Beans would go back to Chicago with her dude Sayin he don't like Dr. Wick But Dr. Wick don't give a shit Zany got Nicky waiting for the hit Wifey study entire cuz something seems fishy Cuz all my relations iffy iffy Wifey thinks Big Sonya would try to fuck Big Sonya knew if he try wifey was down to buck Now all these niggas in my rhyme are my people No one can save them not even a steeple could make the equal You're all my sisters, my brothers But I'm tired of mediating, I'mma sit back and watch y'all kill each motherfucking other [Hook] Yo... This is my own hell nigga this is my own hell Just trynna make my records sell Off in my own hell nigga, this is my own hell This is my own hell nigga this is my own hell Just trynna make my records sell Off in my own hell nigga, this is my own hell