Fear

[Intro: {Mackenzie O'Guin} and Tech N9ne] {Fear} This was the moment I feared x3 [Verse 1] Reoccurring dream, I was falling Droppin' from something tall And Jesus name that I'm calling This is pretty deep how I'mma decorate the city street Little bitty pieces, there's really gonna be some chalky drawings In this dream I had, when I land I can taste the blood, I can smell the concrete And I can feel my bones crush on a calm street Dark and desolate, my heart'll never get Another beat I'm gonna be other head to split, my hell is credited Where the red is in, I'm down and dead admit in light I'm dreadin' this If we're created of God than predestination Should not be looked at as odd, when we're blessed to wake in- Side of a dream, like I've been here before And we sum it up with some french expression like we didn't hear the lord So I'm hopin' and prayin' That I won't be opened and sprayin' In real life and it's just a dream, and it's not a thing that can sway my view But my fear is that I end up layin' and ready for decayin' What I thought was a dream now it's Déjà vu [Hook: {Mackenzie O'Guin} & Tech N9ne] {Fear} If I fall will the angels catch me? Or end it all is it my destiny? Is there a sound when the ground absorbs me? Or a dream tellin' me my story [Verse 2] I called up my mother, but who answered my brother He said "she real sick but I'm gonna put her on just tell her you love her" My heart it just fluttered when mama picked up she would utter "Who is this?" I said "Donnie", but she thought I was another Didn't even know me, and she's not an oldie It's the lupus or epilepsy Maybe the psychosis solely "This your son I just called to say happy birthday" Not really knowin' me hit me in the worst way Then she said "Oh yeah, little Donnie, how you doin' in school?" I said "I'm 42, mommy!" I give my arm, leg, leg, arm, head if that means my momma get better Toughest thing to swallow is when someone who raised you, they gonna forget ya I'm feelin' sadness, I'm feelin' anger Steady praying for a higher power to come down and change her Rearrange her cause my fear is that the sickness in her mind In due time it'll make her son a stranger [Hook 2] A stranger to the one who raised us Nameless to the one who named us Back to the place where it all began I'm seeing heaven but I fear it's the end [Verse 3] Taught to have faith in God Breakin' bread then we bakin' cod Makin' plenty then spread it abroad Wash it down with a glass of Shiraz I try to walk the path of the righteous one But this life is one, that's full of strife, let's run To the mountain top What I'm 'bout to say if suckas starts to thinking this holy name I denounce then stop Man, I'm just sayin' I do a whole lot of prayin' And I wonder if it's listenin' to Aaron's nightly whisperin' 'Bout mom in the tithe she's weakly payin' I know it's a blessing, that I raised kids cause I got skill And thank God that gangbang thing didn't bring me hot steel Now my mom's worse and a lot ill My fear is that this God I'm prayin' to for my mother is not real [Hook 3] Extinguish me from this world of fire False teachings taught by liars Prayers echoing in an empty asylum No salvation from man's messiah