chaotic

[Verse 1] I have this paralyzing fear that I'll maybe go nowhere But God forbid me ever admitting I could be scared And I can't stand my friends right now, we got nothing in common But being lonely's worse than just having friends that don't care [Pre-Chorus] You said it looks like I've been going through hell How did you know? How could you tell? Ask me to explain myself, well [Chorus] I'm trying my best here to be brutally honest Nobody said changing would be this exhausting A foot on the break 'cause it's been making me carsick How could you blame me? Growing up is chaotic [Verse 2] Don't wanna say it but I really think that I miss him It might seem stupid but I still look through all of our texts Who knew that wanting someonе could ever make mе this desperate Don't think I'll do that again, no [Pre-Chorus] You said it looks like I've been going through hell How did you know? How could you tell? You ask me to explain myself, well [Chorus] I'm trying my best here to be brutally honest Nobody said changing would be this exhausting A foot on the break 'cause it's been making me carsick How could you blame me? Growing up is chaotic [Bridge] And maybe I'm just blowing all this shit up in my head But I can't help it, no, I can't help it Fooling myself thinking that I'll never love again But damn I felt it, I really felt it And maybe I'm just blowing all this shit up in my head But I can't help it, no,I can't help it Spending too much time on things I know that I'll forget But damn I felt it [Outro] I'm trying my best here to be brutally honest Nobody said changing could be this exhausting A foot on the break 'cause it's making me carsick How could you blame me?