Slave

(Verse 1) Mom asking do I wanna die alone Honesly mom I don't really have a choice I know you want some grandsons and a wife to call a daughter But it'll never happen, I am set to be a loner It used to be I only needed weed and arizona But now I hate weed, never been to Arizona I told my niggas maybe it'd be great in California But that's just an excuse I have to own up and admit That it's shit Every day I think I wanna quit My soundcloud ain't blasting It ain't getting many hits My stomach is now churning like it took a couple hits I lost my girl and now I'm replacing her with these cigs I know I'm gonna die if I continue But honestly that makes me feel much better when I inhale I prevailed My last fails But now I feel like I'm reaching my last tale Damn And the only reason that I still live is my brother But really I never let him talk to me bout my problems Or his I mean hes just a kid He still doesnt have a bucket list He walks into my room like who the fuck is this My father telling me that this music shit isnt blowing I agree I really do agree But i dont wanna be another kid from this city Who wanted to live a dream and ended up in the streets Don't let me be (Hook) They never said life will always be fair But thats no reason to be scared But goddamn it how I wish I was there Yo I'll be there I wish i could be there Just let me be there Someone put me there Let me be there Let me be there (Verse 2) And video games don't please me like they used to I sold all of my shit, cause honestly I am growing up No longer am I stuck on a screen Playing ps3 Pretending to be A character inside these plots and fictional worlds Searching for a miracle girl End up staying up at 4 am Talking to a friend Bout how I want it to end Yo you think this is pretend Like I dont have these thoughts again and again Man fuck it, I'll just write a will Pop some pills Let em take affect Dont wake up the next morning Have my father come in check on me And see that I'm dead Hide my brothers eyes Tell my mother, cries Like why did he have to die People that love me around my coffin Three of them that hate me Ex friend, enemy, girl that used to date me Have em speak about how I was good guy How I went too soon Hope hes in the sky watching us All I'm watching is the death of a loser Pain abuser made excuses To make up for losing My purpose is useless I always wanted to be a legend Help the world Change the world Etc. etc I really do feel like this is my last words But I'm to pussy to do it, and it only get worse But if I do find the guts To take knife and cut Just know that I am better off left in the dust But (Hook 2) They never said life will always be fair But thats no reason to be scared But goddamn it how I wish I was there Yo I'll be there I wish i could be there Just let me be there Someone put me there Let me be there Let me be there Cause goddamn it I'm so scared I'm so scared I'm so scared of myself, my own reflection Scared of my own reflection Just let me be there Just let me be there Just let me be there Oh Just let me be there Just leave me to die Just leave me to die Just leave me to die Just Just leave me