Exasperated

[Tabanacle] Yeah, I feel like I got no more I've lost it all And sometimes I feel god don't talk Cos I been looking at the sky I been asking the questions But feel like the answers don't fall And I don't wanna be a tear in your eye or a problem here Lost in years of my life constant fear Cos you thinking if I fail now How could I bounce back from that And watch my life flip round like an acrobat And never once stop working I was certain I could blow I don't need no person I could do it on my own Feeling like the world wanna keep at the bottom Every minute trying to stop me so I'm moving kinda slow And if I quit now I'd probably be sick living years on my own thinking I will never know Its like we hope for more For years I worked hard still they closed the doors A broken force sometimes I felt close of course But you never really get what u due So respect to the people that rated If you listened and you put me on your playlist If you gave me time I'm a give you mine Cos I ain't got time for these haters I been sitting on this porch for ages Spilling out my heart whilst it poured on the pages They ignored me I hate it thinking I don't wanna be caught in this matrix But this world it can move so cold and time man it moves so slow And I be wishing every minute I been spitting someone's living In the city that can me hear though And all though I came far in ways When I look I still feel so far away All I've ever done here is harbour pain It scarred my brain and put me in a darker place Guess I'm just cast away now all I wanna do is find a way out I been trapped living broke in this flat On my own with these raps surrounded by doubt I couldn't give much more than I've gave But I'm sitting at home I should be touring on stage Days go by weeks turn into months Then another year goes in the flick of a page Sick of the games but I ain't trying to stop yet I ain't trying to be another writer who retired and never drop hits Never wanted to give his heart and his soul to the music that he wrote Cos he lost it when his passion died years ago Cos now its all about fashion lies fears have grown Cos what we once knew now it's not the same sound out as The music that we use to hear years ago Times I was so low, I was raging Body felt dead but my soul ain't escaping No one to turn to no one to love All I got left is my bars and blood I sweat tears for this for years I gave em all everything I have Now I'm sitting here just a penny's and a pad And the truth is at times I ain't never been this mad Cos how I feel right now man is crazy Lately all I wanna do is just quit But truth is quitting ain't really going to save me All it's gonna do is make me feel worse off Sometimes I feel cursed by god Then I feel like bursting off but what's that gonna change now for a murder cost When the words are lost looking for a sign and you search a lot And now I'm feeling like its time I gotta work it up Cos I've been giving this my life and I ain't earned enough Steady thinking is it time should I turn and run But I don't wanna be that guy so I'm burning up I give em everything I have but it ain't enough And when times felt bad man it made it tough Its like these lyrics turn u mad when you make em up Cos I've been sitting with my pad tearing paper up I just gotta change it round cos I'm feeling kinda down on my spirits Got me out here to win it so I'm telling you now that I'm in it till I'm out And the curtain comes down and its time on my lyrics