Butterfly Effect

If only I could turn back time [Chorus: repeat] I'll take away the pain that I cause when I speak it in rhyme If only I could turn back time If I could I'll dry your teary eyes with a push of rewind If only I could turn back time I'd have took my ass to school instead of doing drugs and crime If only [1st Verse] Never meant to render hurt to who I love All I ever wanted was a blessing from the Man above Lost in ignorance how can I panic Misusin those I love actually I don't understand it Wish I could recapture the past if the chance was granted Like the butterfly effect I'd repair all damage And make it where you never did suffer Give you the peace you only dreamt of having with your mother Til then I'm in the gutter Niggas think I live my life to cast pain To an innocent being who I can only give my last name Shit I'd be different if the cash came But in the eyes of the system I'm just a victim with a bad name Homeless if another seed is my destiny And I ain't got a thing what will I leave as a legacy I'm prayin desperately All the good that I rendered manifested into trouble We'd probably be better separately so baby I apologize You sacrificed paradise for a life of parasites And hell modified the serpent rendered us a lot of lies Drinking the cup of suffering cause we have-nots Who outta rise infatuated with the dollar sign I didn't know the half of your struggle feelin You was outta line thought I could save her Like the Lion of Judah she was a rose being smothered Cause I planted manure if only [2nd Verse] Dear Cinderella I'm sorry I was blinded by cheddar Living life as a man with no money I could never measure I dreamt of buying you a mansion of bricks But I was barely recouping and CEO's were rich You bared with me in hopes that your baby would rise And when the bills were behind shit it ate me alive I started peddlin yay sellin hay to see a better day Dirty money and you said the Lord told you never take it And with a new breed in the game lurking The game is strenuous on me so I continue working My only way for me to feed my baby Was hit the trap with 380 And serve the fiends who shady My fantasy is riding in Mercedes But I got 9 albums out And ain't a DJ in the South trying to even play me Wish I could rewind the hands of time Get a career and never have to put a hand in crime if only [3rd Verse] Dear child I aborted I'm writing a letter to you in Heaven in my mind it was pre-recorded Me I'm still getting shorted The fires of having nothing have got me feelin suicidal bout to forfeit Pray for your daddy he's a madman Ain't a thing going his was looking for treasure in a trash can See you was precious before I met you Let it be told I never wanted you to feel the pain and be exposed And Lord knows I'll probably be punished but I deserve it So I'm nervous but I'm always honest But if I didn't rap and had a 9 to 5 in college From hella degrees in college it'll probably be logic My life is deadly as a kitchen razor I felt a life in Heaven was the only way to raise ya So if I'm wrong pray for me directly to the Savior I need his mercy now or later Alpha and Omega hell is major