Two Sides (a/k/a Heartbreaker)

[Verse One: Speed on the Beat] Thought you were mature, you had your friends tell me I overworked? With you, that you were scared of Speed and his so-called thirstiness? It wasn't about sex, when I came to you at first, Ms. Dezeray But, I just saw what I wanted, and I went for it. Damn is that ok? But, I should've saw it repeating, patterns from that Treeka shit Misguided signals, then you talking to my ex about that shit? How you "misled" me to think it was a date...I lied! To piss Raquel off, now who's the Devil Inside? I desired your attention, maybe overplayed your affections But, be a woman, Ms. Cephas, don't send misdirection my way! Yeah, I know. You said just go with the flow But that only went one way didn't it, though? Into your phone... Maybe into your brain for a couple of seconds and out through your ears You were stuck on them other niggas that you hid behind fear Calling insecurity? Bullshit! I ain't Kevin. And heaven forbid you thought I was Because that's an unlucky seven days or so... We spent. Over the new year, hyping up this shit Drunk texting me, bout how you're feeling my shit Then when you sober you flip, cutting off phones and shit Normally? I'd be like man..."Fuck you too, bitch!" I told you my life, didn't do it for pity Just like you didn't when you told me about [DON'T SAY IT SPEEDY!] If you weren't interested for real, should've told me from the jump Instead of just saying "oh we can chill," then not even try and chum it up To get to know Speed a little bit better... Standing outside John Hopkins University, colder than a killer with a vendetta Should've known better that this would be Tree-Treeka part two But I guess that's what I get: The truth about Dez-iring you Should've talked to Kel about what we did, but that ship has sailed So, now the wind is back and I'm ready to take sail... If you wanna hop back on, Dezeray, now is your chance But don't expect Speed to save you, any type of dance (Bye bye!) [Instrumental Bridge] [Verse Two: Speed on the Beat] Hey Dezeray. Lisandra told me the truth 'bout you How you wanna be cool, but I can't keeping bringing up the foolish shit I thought we had. Or, well...that I wanted That THAT freaks you out like all hell, and probably reminds you of that other cat And I never wanted that, I just wanted to show you That you were incredible and Raquel and I were gone away... But, you were right, I STILL have feelings for her And those feelings, those fucking feelings are a gift and a curse You've got a boyfriend now, and I'm not gonna intervene with that I'll keep the convos light and get out my feelings Killing a friendship over me simping like all hell I'm not thirsty for anything but 151 and a well of H2O I know I'm never ever gonna make you feel Uncomfortable, because no one deserves that Treeka style for real So, best of luck with your life, hopefully I'm stil in it As a friend, of course, because anything else? Gotta be finished But, I'll be straight up with you, Dezeray. I thought there was more But I was living in a fantasy world, cause I did ignore Everything you did, I put you on a pedestal And I should've never put you in the middle of our feud Using you as fuel to piss Raquel off... I'm an ASSHOLE and a moron and I'm not surprised at all That you distanced yourself from me, and my "crazy" infatuations Hell, I called our movie time a date just to make shit seem Like you and I were the real couple of my life, and to piss Raquel off I'm the real devil inside Possessed by fucked up shit, going on in my mind And I'm getting hella help for it, so I know in due time Whether or not it worked, if I can be normal again But, I'm making strides, here's the final part of my plan Lisandra told me "let you come to me," so on the real that's what I'mma do So Dezeray Middle-Name-Unknown Cephas, I bid my romantic feelings for you adieu (Bye Bye)