Pain

[Intro] Yeah, feel my pain Filled with pain It's a struggle everyday Did I walk in the right door? I don't know Yeah I never back down, I do what it takes me Things gettin' shaky, can't let it break me A lot love us, some hate me Some friends snake me Sometimes the shit just make me Wanna grab the tote and lose it It ain't just tracks and raps It's a whole other side to music Things you can't see on MTV, but it's here Lord, what's happened to me? I'm really out there Was this the right door to walk in? Lips movin', but ain't nobody talkin' I plead and I cry to the Heaven skies above to show me love Wish that I could backtrack and make it like it was, but I can't 1 - When the pain's in me I wish that it would let me be But where can I run and where do I turn When it's chasin' me? Repeat 1 I got to deal with the what IS, fuck what IF's Got to put it down and make it right for my kids How many parties, how many bottles gotta pop? How many more gots to die? When this shit gon' stop? I feel it in my heart, but I plays my part It's a whole bigger picture so stay true to your art Until I'm hauled off in the car Swear it wasn't this dark when I got my start Internin', been chart burnin', kept learnin' Kept earnin', and the wheels kept turnin' But after all the hit songs and the fame is gone Your money right, but everything else done gone wrong You're lonely, a lot of bitches is phony Wanna know me just to tell niggas we homies Whole time bitch schemin' on my Rolley It's hard to watch everyone you with When you rich, niggas with you try to get you Plenty wanna hit you, I learned it now It was no way out, now it's no turnin' around Niggas that was with me, I praise 'em now A toast to the Red Zone, raise 'em now Repeat 1 Repeat 1 Silence, all eyes on me But I can see through 'em like I knew 'em, so I walk to 'em Extend my hand, try to talk to 'em Stand while others ran and try to understand Two sides of a story, let me tell my side of it It's evident, it's there, I can't hide from it How much for the soul in the window? Most wanna be rich and famous It's dangerous, you'll find out in a minute though I love the close ones, sometimes feel like I got no one Those that was there, I know I owe 'em Backstabbers, I brush 'em off In a room with straight faces, can't trust 'em all Rush and fall, pause, let nature take it's course Stand firm cuz I serve a higher force And I can scream 'til I'm hoarse, hear me Lord See I'm ? like 3 dice, riskin' it all in street life At the fork in the road, I made a hard right I put the work in, then escaped the hard life I put it down 'til it's time to lay me down Wanna be free, but a lot of shit weighs me down The light's dimmin', who gon' save me now? It's all good, but it ain't gravy now We gots to do it for the babies now And bring 'em up to correct all the wrong we've done And don't let 'em sing the same song we sung Like, killin' each other off one by one And turn 'em from slangin' the drugs, into some'in You can make it out the ghetto in more ways than one But for now I'mma pray for better days to come Repeat 1 Repeat 1