Life

{S.M.O.S - Verse 1} Last night I couldn't go to sleep 'til 4 A.M And it's been like that for a couple weeks and here we go again And this time it's not my choice, like I lay down at 12 And think on solving problems but it doesn't help See I've been talking to this girl and I think she's kind of cute I wish her insides match her outside cause I hate the things that you do Things are going great and you'll start a fight for no reason And when I prove you wrong you'll just say goodbye and I'm leaving The next day you apologize, I think it's all gone But it just keeps on going on like what the hell is going on You saw some lyrics that I wrote, you said that they made you mad You said I needed to move on if I wanted this thing to last You can mask that you still have feelings, but that's not how your face looked When you're mentioning you're Ex on every status of your Facebook Man, I swear, sometimes I want to run I'm screaming out MHS lets go now I'm done Lately I've been working hard, I've made it through a couple obstacles I'm just making music cause that's not really optional See in the past month, I've had to take a breather They told me to take it easy before I have a seizure See now I'm awake, right before 8, making a song 3 times a day I'm just sick of being sick, you can see it on my face Cause this used to be for fun but now it's so much more I messed up my education and I'm scared to see what's in store People say I'm good enough but for me I just don't hear it I'm telling friends they can't come over cause I'm writing lyrics They think I'm living good, they think I'm making money Some people say I'll never make it, but they'll never take this from me So whether you like me or you hate Whether you're on my side or you ain't I swear every single person in the world somehow relates When I say I'm chasing my dreams It's just me and my team And my 5 or 6 other friends who told me they believe I promise that I'll never let you down I'll either make it or keep trying until I'm under the ground Yeah I fell in love with music and hey rap is my life now Different changes every week, I'm trying to make this my lifestyle And I know I'm supposed to be here, let me make it clear Cause I swear when I'm rapping all my problems disappear See I'm doing this for my friends, for my city, for my family I don't care about the money, I just want to make you happy I'm hearing conversations and I'm starting to get mentioned I don't want to get paid in bills, I want people to pay attention So I thank god for my sanity, thank him for my health Only got 20 bucks in my pocket but this isn't about the wealth Cause I'd rather live dead broke and still get to be me Than have hundreds of millions of dollars and no degree And I know I might not win but I put up 1 hell of a fight But to you this is music, but to me this is life