Sadie

Verse 1 Dear Sadie I think I love to suffer College is cool but it's hard when you an up and comer Trying to make something from nothing, and everyone other Than you seems to be doing fine But who am I to preach when I'm stuck and blunder Every time a cute girls happens to say hi, adjust the rudders Pretending to be above the others I wanted to write a song for you but ended up at Brothers Now I'm just another Kid buzzed cause of a cup or two of something someone put in my hand My vision's foggy I can't tell if it's tears, I'm tripping probably I know I need to dip but your lips are calling Then I trip, I'm falling Into an abyss that's descends upon me As your hands move to my chest and we're kissing softly I say "I only need you" You say I need a different hobby Than reminiscing, oddly Now I'm waking up In a bed that's not mine, and you're angled away from me I move and you stay asleep But something's wrong, I move to see your face and then I angrily Realize again that you were make believe And the girl in this bed is someone that I met when I was anxiously Thinking about the way I used to keep you up too late to sleep Now I'm glad we stayed awake together Cause you're underground, away from me A place where you can stay asleep Goodnight Verse 2 Dear Sadie I hear a ring from my phone it's loud And think about the ring I never gave you to hold it down And think about the way you never got to hold a child that came from your own canal Alone in a broken house But anyway, back to the phone, I know the sound It's "In The Air Tonight", your call tone, I'm hoping now That you might wanna chill, so I leave and go to town To our spot, the place by the orchard down by the lake I pull up and wait for an hour But you don't show up Why do you never show up? We were supposed to meet here just like every other time But again you skipped it, just tell me why Is it because I failed in giving you a home? Is it because I bailed and didn't go to your funeral? I'm sorry, okay? I couldn't stand to see your body in a casket, you're alive and everybody's okay Just quit punishing me for being dumb and come back to me I swear I'll quit my job and every minute we'll live happily Of course, it was good so short is what it had to be But who gets to make the rules? We'll pass this catastrophe This sadness attacking me And I could never fight without you looking after me I know, I know Never raise my voice when I'm with you I'm sorry baby, I just really miss you Please wake up? [Beat change] Verse 3 Dear Sadie I don't wanna disappoint you But I really miss you and today I think that I might join you Before you tell me off just try to think what I'm going through Though you say it's selfish, I can't help but disappoint you Some men are only controlled by what their loins do But me, I'm trapped by what my heart and mind point to Heaven where you are, that's where I'm heading today Isn't it selfish of you to tell me to stay? It used to be bearable but now I'm getting the pain In worse doses, as I find that I'm forgetting your face Life moves either super slow or breakneck speed But no more, today I'll be setting the pace And if zero's where I have to go to be with you in paradise... You say it might be worse but I'm willing to throw this pair of dice To meet you up there tonight Climbing up the stairs to height of peace and love Suddenly As I'm sitting in the park a little kid walks up to me And says I look like his daddy Uncomfortably, I say "I'm not your dad" He says "I know" and then shrugs with ease "My daddy left when I was in my mothers stomach, he didn't like me enough to stick around and keep me company" And then the boy leaves Me, I stay and stare In a haze, and scared Sadie, you're not playing fair Stop trying to muddle things I wanna be with you tonight Why are you tryna keep me from making moves that's right? You think I wanna stay here in a ruthless and stupid life And go through long days and not be with you at night? That's not fair That's really not fair I want to see you, do you really not care? Cause if I come to where you are Just for you to be mad at me That would be a tragedy, travesty, catastrophe I need you to be glad for me And you too, we'll be together living happily And lavishly with Jesus, wave hi to Adam, Eve And anyone else while it's happening Doesn't it sound like perfection? cause if you asking me I can't think of anything more perfect Sure I'll leave some stuff behind But I can't think of anything more worth it Then right then I see the boy cry With big eyes lookin back at me Asking me why daddy had to leave What am I supposed to say to that? I pat his cheek And say "Life happens, we don't always have the answers But it's never really the end" And right then I hear you laugh at me Wow... Wow... Okay... I...pick the boy up "Where's your mom?" You're still laughing, geez You tell me that's exactly what had to be For me to see the light through my own words and that could be The reason I'm still breathing tonight if that's what happens, B You tell me that I still have a whole life to live, just survive And one day we'll meet the right way on the other side Goodbye