Can't Go Home

Where am i supposed to go? I dont think i can do this for to much longer, man This is the last verse i will ever write Lonely Roads Been Walked The Winter Has Been Long The Ice Has Never Melted I'm Pricing My Sins Upon A Credit Card Still Payin My Debts, My Personal Health Struggle Kids Lookin Up To Me, What Should I Tell To Them? The Nightmares Upon Me, The Dirty Laundry Is On Me I Am The Darkness Standin Amongst An Army Of Zombies The serenade Of The Renegade Has Been sung Allready And Then Some But Then Past Is Catchin Up Comin To Get Me People Know My Bloated Face, Everywhere I Go To Chase And Cope I Need To Slow Down, I Need To Stop It Motivates My Flow To Space And Motor Races In My Thoughts Moving At The Speed Of Light, I Can't Slow Tha Pace Mommy Cryin On The Phone, Wifey Kicked Me Out The Crib Strangers Wanna Buy Me Drinks, Write About The Life I Live Push Me Deeper Down, I Creep Around In This Isolation But What Am I After now? Well This The Life Im Chasing Back into the darkness, everywhere that i go My enemies are all dead and so are my survivals Its all about being more ruthless on arrival Pistol in my pants, but my hands' on the bible And i can't see... The world beyond... Im too far gone.. I can't go home... Its time to drink again, I see him smokin in The alley down town ther other night hes doin coke again He thinks hes gettin rich hes just going to be broken in A million diffrent pieces with the hand of fait chokin him Im still alone, walkin with the killers dome I never left this place, but i dont feel at home no more My memories are movin slow My past is beatin faster full of anger and rage And im a greedy bastard Doller signs in my rhymes, benjamins in my eyes Ememies are hard for me to see, pretenders in disquise My mind is f*cked up inside I can't remember lies i dont even know the truth Ive been on a bender like ever since september right Now into february What about the bodies in your past you said you buried I can't remember shit, takin up the cemetery The voices in my head are back - you talkin to them already!? Back into the darkness, everywhere that i go My enemies are all dead and so are my survivals Its all about being more ruthless on arrival Pistol in my pants, but my hand's on the bible And i can't see... The world beyond... Im to far gone.. I can't go home...