Coping mechanism

I've got to find a better coping mechanism I'm falling apart, disintegrating in the schism Is it a show, or is it realism Lost and found, and then I was locked up in a prison I better find a more suitable solution Before I reach the most predictable conclusion To be the victim of my personal delusion Just to find that I've been living an illusion They say there's just no substitute for the real thing The kind of chemical that can make your whole body sing You can take the needle and shove it in your vein And call it medication to alleviate you pain I do my best to keep the confusion to a minimum I'll try not to be the monster of the millennium Someday they'll thank us for the hell that we was givin' 'em When all of this time we just hope we were borderline offendin' 'em They say there's just no substitute for the real thing The kind of chemical that can make your whole body sing Scrub it till you're bleedin', but you can't scrub out the stain Leave your mouth wide open while you're drowning in the rain Put your head down, wipe the spit out your eye Ain't nobody coming to your "poor me" parade When trouble knock on your door, what you ignoring it for You'll be standing there helpless when it comes on in Say there's just no substitute for the real thing The kind of chemical that'll make your whole body sing You can test your merit, you can show it some restraint But in the end you're just a predictable refrain Oh, ain't nothing like the real thing The kind of chemical that'll make your whole body sing You can test your merit, you can show it some restraint But in the end you're just a predictable refrain Poisonin' your brain (Your heart has been mislain) You're gonna die just the same (For a dream you could not attain) Cause you drove yourself insane (And there's nobody left to blame) So you just carry on an complain 'Til you forget your name