Blood in the Sink

[Laughing] Stutter boy Stutter boy Stutter boy [Verse 1: Shiquon] Everybody told me that I'm living in a dream Rapping is a fantasy just think of other things That could help me be successful either lawyer or mechanic Man I've had it leave me be and let me do the things I please I don't really need your doubts it's unnecessary and you're very Hypercritical I really wish that you could see Everything that I envision cause my vision is much bigger Than the places that I've been to and the one I'm settled in Why make me change for a life that I don't fit in Music is my life and ain't no use for me pretending That ima be so happy doing stuff that's minimum my maximum Is waging even higher than the house you live in And tell me bout change is money or the fact that you can probably Go help a person make a better living Man you don't even know all you care about is money So go chill and take a nap because you selfish so forget it [Hook: Shiquon] I feel strange Why am I thinking this way Why am I thinking these things Maybe cause I can't Keep everything in my nigga Something's really gonna have to change Man I can't lie My feelings are beginning to change I can't keep living life this way I don't know what to think But back when I was younger I use to fantasize and dream about me having blood in the sink [Bridge: Shiquon] I don't know anymore Should I leave or live life some more I'm thinking suicide cause nothing feels right no more I need help please help me lord I can't lie I don't like to rhyme no more Should I give it up or write some more Don't know what to think I don't wanna cry no more That's why I got blood in the sink [Verse 2: Shiquon] A lot of niggas come to me and ask me for a favor But back when I was coming up they acting like a hater Telling me I'm ok alright you ain't that dope try again Then sucking up to me later Naw nigga I quit eff that nobody really care Cause back when I was on my own nobody wasn't there Nobody but my brother cousins mother close friend I ain't lying If you feel some type of way get outta here I speak nothing but the truth and all you niggas care about Is when the police kill another black man Y'all some gah damn hypocrites it's black on black crime everyday How is this any different why you mad And since you say I wouldn't make it telling y'all the truth I'm putting down the mic keeping my ass up out the booth And let you niggas tarnish everything within this planet Cause I've had it I don't want it anymore so y'all can have it [Hook] [Bridge] [Gun shot] [Verse 3: Shiquon] It wasn't really the gun that killed me It was the fear of not surviving and it's weird the Only thing upon my mind was my life And how I'm about to ruin with this gah damn nine I was letting everything just get to me I worried way too much bout what they thought of me I had a lot hate towards my enemies And allowed my freaking past to keep on haunting me I'm still breathing but I see my body Murdered myself I've just committed a suihomi With a weapon that's not registered so when they find me I'll be drowning underneath it like I'm trapped in a tsunami I didn't feel a thing I just heard a bang It was just a pinch luckily nothing hang I still regret it but I can't change a thing It'll be a miracle if I'm granted another chance man [Hook 2: Shiquon] I felt strange Why was I thinking that way Why was I thinking those things Man now I can't Take anything back my nigga Now I really cannot change a thing Within my life I've already done a stupid thing I took a freaking bullet to the brain Now look what I became Just another black child fallen victim to the crowd without speaking out loud with blood in the sink