Good Day

Good Morning! My rent ain't paid but I'm alive y'all that's okay I had my Ipod on shuffle, heard one of my lines I said I'm like Gotti, Ghandi and god all combined damn I be spittin' some flames, How y'all doin? It's a beautiful day Verse I used to complain about my financial state, career shit My girl trouble, now I don't hear shit Peep this story, I went to work just to clear my desk And say goodbye to all the folks I left Then I seen my man, who always showed up to work with a smile We would kick it at lunchtime and I admired his style He was excited everyday, he was the first one there And we would always roll together though he rolled in a chair with wheels Cause he ain't walk in like about 3 years He said the accident had happened when he had a few beers Arguing with his wife, he never told me the story Until the day I looked defeated and he said that's when I needed it I asked him why he's always happy as Hell He said he's happy as Heaven with a story to tell He said: "Me and my girl was fightin' maybe she suspected cheatin' Cause I was, I was buzzed and there's times I almost beat her But I didn't, we was newlyweds, tight from junior high I was raised in Crown Heights, she grew up in Do or die And the night we was beefing, dog I ain't gon' even lie I said I hate u she said 'why don't you die?' I didn't mean it, but she checked my phone I was driving on the road, she like 'who the hell is this?' How am I supposed to know? 'It's that bitch you be with, nigga call her right now' I'm like chill girl calm the fuck down Put your seat belt on, tears in her eyes 'how can you be so wrong? You still fucking her?' I'm like nah, not really She swinging, I'm laughing, til she caught me in the eye I couldn't see, tried to switch lanes fast I said I tried Cause the next thing I know, I saw clouds in the sky I was laying on my back there was cars passing by Heard the sirens, noise, wilding I was doing more than 60 Some people say God was with me I say he's always there, even though my girl looked so scared She started shaking on the stretcher then the next 90 seconds I was in the hospital, with the doc giving blessings Said my legs stopped working and my lady she was pregnant And we mighta saved the baby, what baby?? I was stressing like Save my lady we'll make another baby!! But we never got the chance Never said I love you all I got was a glance Life can't be this bad, yes it can! I was thinking at first She passed and it couldn't be worse I went into trauma, my mama came Some nights inside my brain I dream I could've saved her but the dream just fades They tell me I'mma walk one day, and I can feel it 2 weeks ago, my right knee cap got back the feeling And my ankle started twitching dog this is not a game That's why I laugh when y'all be crying and complaining And I ain't saying you sound stupid But that day I met the boss You told me keep my fingers crossed and you knew I couldn't do it You beef about blocks you be trooping Life is hard but I ain't making excuses I just pray, I don't cry, I don't ask God why I watched my wife die, but He kept me alive and now I can still see her smile as I stare in my daughter's eyes And say thanks for my child yo everyday is a good day."