Greatest Fear

[Intro] Yeah, Yeah, Uh huh Sometimes I wonder what more do I gotta do I been pourin out my heart for years, You know This is my greatest fear [Verse 1] Some say I'm sick, Cause of what my dreams depict in the midst of death I hear the screams of hollowtips on the pistol's breath Banana clips and the triple vest Brethren, I'm lovin the ghetto that's governed by sips of the crystal meth Niggas'll put one in ya brain just to get respect Please believe that where you slain, Is where you gettin left I seen raindrops drippin from dead carcasses And straight shots spit and they trippin off who the target is We ain't grew up like the Partridges I watched my pahtna sniff lines of coke off the shine of 9 cartridges The only good days are the ones the liquor sedates I take a sip for my niggas and pray that they get through the gates I became popular from them weak niggas poppin at me They think I was choppin a key, But naw, I'm just hockin' cd's I watched Jay get a deal and I feel I'm just as nice I pray I get a mil before I'm killed, Nigga this is life [Chorus] They said my day would come, But it's been so long So many tears to cry, And yet just 1 song Somebody help me And if I die today, Would they even care? If I left this place without a trace, Then I was there [Verse 2] All I got is my heater, my art, my heart, my balls dog, and my religion Reality's depressing and got me stressin about my odds of livin Cause I can see that they slim to none Nicotine in my lungs, Mixing gin wit rum Until I vomit up lyrics to wet poor tricks That can captivate caskets and resurrect corpses Then maybe I could see my brother again I'm tryin to be righteous, But they'll only let me bubble in sin I serve God, But the evil one be governing them So what's the use of keepin it raw when they in love wit a trend? They don't feel me, If I catch these years from another case Which one of y'all gon wipe the tears from my mother's face? So quit boxing us out dawg, Let us shine Respect the grind, Maybe you made it, But the rest is dyin This is for my niggas that tryed even though they paid the cost And every rapper that died long before they made the source [Chorus] [Verse 3] I spit on 4 dudes, Then let the pro tools capture the song Hopefully, The vocals'll last after I'm gone Will my image diminish before I'm finished at the end of my race? And they takin the bullets out the antonym to my face Will you cry cause you neglected this young man an equal chance? And an opportunity when you could've seen me advance? Even as I'm writing, I'm enlightened that our hours passed Damn mane, Most fans just drank from the hour glass I pray daily they aid me when I'm seekin a deal And I'm keepin it real when I'm sayin I sleep wit my steel I write for hours to perfect the technique of my skill Do I gotta put heat to my grill to show you what's deep what I feel? Failure's a sea, And I'm stuck in it's wake drowning Wit the thought I won't make it, for God's sake it's my 8th album Father forgive me, I'm tryin to fulfill purpose But I'ma feel worthless until my skills surface [Chorus]