Wolves at the Door

[Verse 1] Last night I found heaven It's on the tip of my tongue And it reminded me of All the times I was young I'm catching rain in my open mouth I used to smile till the day I found out I have no idea who the hell I've become It's not who I was, it's not who I love [Chorus] I want to drown in a sea filled with Novocaine I want to burn on a beach where the sand Has thousands of needles poking at my skin [Verse 2] I lie in bed to the sound Of the wolves at my door They are speaking in tongues While they claw at my floor I never thought it would come to this I'm more yellow than my own piss They're making rounds Just to even the score Just open the door Just open the door [Chorus] [Bridge] I can't hold on, the path is clear I can't ignore, what's been building for years There's wolves at the door, I won't hide here in fear Wolves at the door I look at myself and the things that I've done Stare away from the mirror and right into the sun I forgive myself for all of my mistakes When will I learn, when will I, when will I burn? [Chorus] [Outro] I gave up on myself a long time ago To the black clouds I'm swallowed And spit me out whole Sometimes it feels like I'm losing my soul At least that means I still have a soul after all