Lifeboats

I just want to feel alive And love myself from the in and the outside Cause every time that I start to feel whole I knock myself on the ground because it's all that I've known Just like the streets burn a hole through your shoe My soul has been worn out too I'm 25 and I still don't fit in Directionless like a blind man painting [Chorus] Mother I'm so sorry, I can't go on like this The lifeboats are leaving with or without me What's the point of falling in love? If I don't love myself What's the point of being alive if all I want is out So I thought that it only feels right To make the decisions that endanger my life Late late at night under black and blue moons I question the reasons that I self-abuse I'm so pathetic It makes me sick I'm a fingerless pianist I see reflections I clench my fists I'm a violin without the strings [Chorus] There is no love There's only this Just lust and lies, and selfishness A black hole where the sun once was I'm never falling back in love Cause it has never been enough Ever since I've been a young boy I was alone Now that I've become a man, the feeling's grown Through the therapy and through the pills, I can't let go But what about the fucking fact I'm still alone What do you do when you got nothing left? Give up! Give up! And hope for the best! I fell into the ocean, I and I feel sick Waiting on a nameless rescue ship What do you do when you got nothing left? Give up! Give up! And hope for the best! I fell into the ocean, I and I feel sick Waiting on a nameless rescue ship [Chorus]