Anguish

Verse 1 I´ve been conditioned since before I denied being a christian ??? Entire worlds collapse with the weight of their words Words can construct a sanctuary that changes in a day In a way it makes sense, as dense images fade And I take time forget the finer things in life Despite not understanding this numbing sensation All caved in probably before I prevail I´ll excel past places others promised to fail Success is objective and just mantels the collective As remedy is a raised duality, dueling, ruining my blissful ignorance ??? my renaissance I´m lost seeking to be found, listening for sound Wearing this crown for ??? proudly The ??? be playing my insecurities As I nervously ask you to murder me It should have been an identity resurrection With childhood memories I keep on forgetting As this continues, conditions prove to be contagious As I am ethic and ethic has become anguish Verse 2 Transform this child of the storm ??? this thorn has caught my sight without unveiling itself Unconditional love seems to have guidelines Landmines places on an already narrow trail Driven by desire to be driven by the third nail And somewhere on my walk I´m bound to pick myself up But if you give me your hand I´ll be eternally grateful Well as I human I have to trouble deserving what it distasteful I´m playful when it comes to matters of live and death First and last breath being taken and being left With the ability to all truth into what I can accept And I know ??? better than I know respect I don’t cuss but that don’t make your mind darker than mine I´ve seen the abyss and done things people would find Strange to say the leader feed the beast I recently acquired a need to live in peace As footprints in the sand speak with the weight of words I live in the hourglass struggling to be heard And I have covered quiet land, and searching language As I am ethic and ethic is anguish Verse 3 Isolated staring through an eyelid back ??? I can´t stop considering where I´ll be in a few Years ,from today, with a new outlook on everything That I one time maybe made a difference As major turns into minor I get no resistance I´m a terrible witness ??? fake being convinced It´s gonna´ work out Though I hold tight to the faith I have Of always been one to take too much of a bad thing I live in extremes and ??? why seem A cry for help might not play out in traditional scenes Hiding behind laughter, held up by ??? ??? Watch as I shatter right here on this track What I´m speaking today I wish I could take back And act like there´s nothing compressing my brain Pretend like I am happy and only ethic remains The fact is right now there´s a lot to sort out I ´m swimming in doubt and surviving on hope And I can live without an answer now if that what´s required But I think this empire has been built on the guilt of ??? Every construction is an order from the ground level A requiem for order, pierce me like metal Blades of a wakening beginning is banished As ethic slowly separates from his anguish