Merry Go Round

[Hook] I have tried in vain, never had success So it seems my life is nothing but a mess I have lost, my only friends Now it seems I have to start again, merry go around [Verse 1] My life's been going around 'n' round since '95 Went from going somewhere to about to die Went from calling my chick a chicken Cause she look like she got poultry around her thighs To calling your piece a chicken Cause she got no teeth And she got crow feet, around her eyes How hard are y'all? I got a heart the size of Arkansas Count to five, these birds gon' hit the ground and they ain't from out the sky Went from having an outta-this-world-flow, to doing a video doing the coon dance To watching' my good friend Eminem winning' a moonman I remember cause I was in New York with all of my boys to start shit Letting 'em stay with me, long story short, they tore up my corporate apartment Went from being a kid addicted to basketball To being an ignorant nigga addicted to alcohol Round and round we go is how this movie would end Self-proclaimed King of my city, not really just truly the King of losing a friend Who woulda thought this dude in the park who's true to his art would lose Or win just by giving his thoughts and views [Hook] [Verse 2] You would hear that Ryan's skilled might even hear Ryan kills You will never hear Ryan Stills, here to put the "i" in ill My mind is still like a merry-go-round spill Like leaving only guns to my kids when I'm killed, I got an iron will Intellect of Zion, I done went too high on pills To triumph, to hiding from bills, to buying buildings Then I went from writing for Dre to wondering if my head was on straight On the sidelines feeling forgot about listening to "Forgot About Dre" From there I went to about a bottle a day Telling who we know "Get outta my face!" okay I know what Kino said about Dre I look at Kino to this day like that was a stupid mistake But if it wasn't for him doing that, what would I be doing today? If it wasn't for Cashis saying that he gonna beat my ass Then me and Em probably wouldn't be laughing bout us getting past it If it wasn't for me being outcasted I woulda never been on the underground rapping with SLAUGHTERHOUSE! [Hook]