Fairweather Fans

If I was granted one wish it would be for you to see me For who I really am because these looks can be deceiving And, I swear to God, if you listen closely By the time this song is over you will truly know me Because I am not a monster, I am just a man And im getting sick and fucking tired of these fans They expect me to be a perfect version of a fucking person And its hurtful, I feel worthless I just wanna feel im worth it And its hard but I am learning to be honest And discerning and i am gaining all my courage to be better I am searching (Damn) but its so damn hard to keep calm When everything I know is broken and scarred! Im not trying to complain about my problems at all Because my problems are the reason i have gotten this far So I am thankful for adversity for making me strong Im just trying to explain how I feel in a song It goes... Oh! I really can't believe im here right now Im hanging on an airplane Falling through the airwaves In the clouds Oh! I never ever want to touch the ground Im walking on a tightrope Searching for the right note To play that sound Lets take it back to'92 when I was 8 My brother gave me a tape by mistake: Dr. Dre It was December 15th to the date (Lemme ride) The Chronic on my birthday must have been fate! Now lets flash forward to the first time in'99 When i heard Shady on the radio and, to my surprise That this is really happening a white boy is rapping From the bottom to the top that motherfucker made it happen So i grab my pen and pad and start writing down the madness Later joined a band and wrote my songs around my sadness Formulated all my Tragic moments into Magic Now im selling tickets to my show and have them packed in You best believe it because im telling the truth I bought a motherfucking Caddy and a house with a view Dont need to prove im amazing and im keeping it true So before you try to hate me take a walk in my shoes It goes... Oh! I really can't believe im here right now Im hanging on an airplane Falling through the airwaves In the clouds Oh! I never ever want to touch the ground Im walking on a tightrope Searching for the right note To play that sound And after all iv'e been through I can say i made it Through the fucking bullshit to the other side safely I can truly say i can feel myself changing into a better person Dont give a fuck if you can hate me Never gonna let you fucking take me down The path im used to taking And i know in my heart of hearts the problems that im facing Is in half the battle im fighting, energy i am wasting Im so sick of these fucking bitches changing what im saying Into something that its not, man this shit has to stop Shit, ill wear the clothes I want and cut my hair all off And ill do it just to prove that im a motherfucking boss And my music keeps me moving, I will not slow or pause Id like to think that im A-Okay And my worries are all foolish and will fade away One day id like to think i faced my fate And my legacy lives on you'll remember my name It goes... Oh! I really can't believe im here right now Im hanging on an airplane Falling through the airwaves In the clouds Oh! I never ever want to touch the ground Im walking on a tightrope Searching for the right note To play that sound Oh! I really can't believe im here right now Im hanging on an airplane Falling through the airwaves In the clouds Oh! I never ever want to touch the ground Im walking on a tightrope Searching for the right note To play that sound