Lonely

(Hook) Been out on the road so long I Feel like I'm locked out my own life It could be worse it ain't like I'm dying Lonely is my company Can't wait to get home and relax But I'm out here grinding believe that It could be worse but the fact remains that Lonely is my company (Verse 1) This touring shit ain't what you think it is Coming up in this music biz ain't  glamorous We just left Atlanta drove from Boston to Los Angeles Somewhere in between I lost my mind like I began to just Party like I'm trying to die call an ambulance I almost overdosed again My time is mostly spent Alone inside my room at some shitty motor inn There's  roaches in the shower But the show is in an hour When it's over we inside the van on the road again Last night I got so drunk that I was comatose I went And punched a bunch of holes up in the wall and broke my hand Puking blood from too much liquor tripping snorting coke with fans One of my closest friends called my phone and asked me how's it been Told him man I been… (Hook) (Verse 2) On tour with Tech I had to catch a plane to Hollywood Mansion in the hills Shooting Switch Lanes I done made it Can't believe it's real Right in the middle of us filming got a text from my girl Pictures of her bloody face She slit her wrist and fell Pills in her system Doctors said she tried to kill herself Put her in a padded room Sent her to a mental health Facility they're telling me that they won't let her out 1000 miles away there's only so much I can do to help Now my album's coming out in like a week or so My videos on MTV The love of my life is stuck in Georgia Regional They let her use the phone She called me and she's crying Saying "Get me out!" "I'm trying" At the meet and greet I'm lying Like I'm fine, I've been dying (Hook) (Verse 3) I was out on tour with Snow and Jarren Benton It's so embarrassin when You're drunk and acting dumb A ton of strangers there to witness Late nights with DJ crisis getting drunk and talking business In the winter overheating Turning on the air condition Mostly I was lonely Talking no one there to listen  Crying in the mirror staring at my own reflection Drugs and alcohol got me all emotional Overall I'm in no condition to battle my own addiction Before you know it though the tour is over so it's history Missing Thanksgiving day but hey you made it home for Christmas You see the one you love and try to pick up where you left it I love her and I missed her But she says I'm acting distant Told her listen I've been (Hook)