I'd Be Lying

[Produced by: DJ Dahi] [Verse 1] I'd be lying if said I didn't doubt sometimes If I'll ever make it out, even though I got some clout I refuse to show my face, or go out sometimes Try to smile to cover the pain, but my mouth don't lie My daddy told me at 5, grown men don't cry He also said he wouldn't leave, so much for that advice But I'm nice, I've grown into a prospect for guap Just need a little time to get my mind in check I'd be lying if i said I wasn't stressed Sometimes, I smoke a blacks and reflect how I got in mess Fam turmoil, niggas dropping out Takeover plan foiled by life, I tell myself it ain't right I tell myself a lot of shit that I like to hear, cause No ones around To cheer me up in my plight Try and fight the depression, fuck an anti depressant Grab a back-wood, the grape one, fill it up with the essence Herbal, and quit the verbal, stop talking I got fines outstanding like bitches at my door, knocking [Hook] I'd be lying if I told you that i wasn't broke I'd be lying if I said never sold coke I'd be lying if I said I don't smoke good I'd be lying if I said I couldn't poke good I'd be lying, if I said I wasn't fucked up Got issues, let the shrink tell me what's up [Verse 2] Think about it often, becoming a rap mogul Take it step by step, for now, lay down these rap vocals Try to make these placements, while time's escaping Death lurking. I'll be drinking rum as I Await him You know ain't that famous when they still asking When the hell you really gonna make it But You know you ain't that nameless When the city believes at young age, you're the greatest Expectations. they can kill a man Make him contemplate his fate with the steel in hand Cause the moves he suppose to make, they ain't pan Life's truly a beach, when you face down in the sand [Hook] I'd be lying if I told you that I wasn't broke I'd be lying if I said never sold coke I'd be lying if I said I don't smoke good I'd be lying if I said I couldn't poke good I'd be lying, if I said I wasn't fucked up Got issues, let the shrink tell me what's up I'd be lying if I said I never told a lie But I'd be dying if I ever lied inside a rhyme [Verse 3] Just broke it off with my Queen, 2 years up in a smoke Of course a nigga is torn but that's the way love goes And When the arguments are daily, then the love starts failing You get to a point where you tired of yelling and wailing, begging And staying, sexing and playing. back to the pain Old wounds never close, they turn into ammo For the gun of resentment, busting relentless Pride issues, un-returned calls, and next chicks Then you try your best to keep it together But she already jaded to a point, she actin however Wish you could go back to a time when the convos were better When you weren't disgusted by every sentence, word or letter Break ups to make up smudged by the tears Wake up and ask yourself, can you go on another year? Why the fuck it gotta hurt like this? These hoes wanna taste but I ain't up for the chase Rather chill smoke purp, and go work on hits These women make you wanna say "Fuck you all, I'mma jerk my dick" But you can't live without 'em. And I haven't been the best I know But I tried so hard, even with the anger problem I tried to suppress it but it still won't go I can admit my faults, but you can't do the same Saying I'll never change? Now that's character assault What kind of character you want? I'm a real ass nigga Yet I congratulate the next nigga that end up with ya, I'm sorry But I'd be lying if I said didn't love ya, put the blame on me [Hook] I'd be lying if I said never sold coke I'd be lying if I said I don't smoke good I'd be lying if I said I couldn't poke good I'd be lying, if I said I wasn't fucked up Got issues, let the shrink tell me what's up I'd be lying if I said I never told a lie But I'd be dying if I ever lied inside a rhyme