Blues

[Verse 1] Now I only smile on Fridays The lights turned off The fan is on for comfort But I lie awake (lie awake) Her next to me is lovely She was nice enough to fuck me Before we went to bed And now my body's feeling warm and comfy My mind is on some "What the fuck is going on?" (Going on) I'm 25 without a basis yet to grow on No foundation Feel like a newborn on the ground naked Tears flowing Mouth open like screaming but no sound making And do I sound crazy? Probably not because we all feel the same We all feel that pain We all drink and smoke and fuck too much To numb the chase of money Bunch of fucking dummies We all heal the same But god damn it we all wake up like "Today will be the day I change" Knowing motherfucking well tomorrow it will be the same I feel like this is all I write about Depression is perpetual I feel my life and write it down Feeling trapped in my head So I wake up on some late night shit Feeling trapped in my bed Trying to quit smoking with those Blus But my friend he left a pack of Reds Walked past the E-Cig and grabbed the pack instead I grabbed the lighter off the coffee table Somebody left the TV on So I turned off the cable Something about that late night feeling Had me feeling lost, unstable Put on my Vans Grab my hat To cover my dumb-ass hair Then I walked down those stairs and Out the door and to the porch of my complex Thinking I'm poor But I'm complex I lit my cigarette I'm feeling alone I'm feeling happy about forgetting my phone Some days I'm on this shit like it's real life Some days I forget my humanity What it feels like And down the street I see this drunk ass I'm thinking, "please walk past, man Don't even ask" (even ask) 'Hey man can I bum a smoke?' So, I gave that bum a smoke And then he asked me for my lighter For my fire Now this is where I get inspired because He said, 'I'm sorry All I brought was my habit' Profound words of an addict Because all I came to this Earth with Was a habit and no purpose (x2) But I'm going to die with a smile on my face Either looking back Or looking forward Let's hope that it's the former