Falling

[Hook] I’m afraid to fly, and I don’t know why I’m jealous of the people who are not afraid to die It’s just that I recall, back when I was small Someone promised that they’d catch me And then they let me fall And now I’m falling Falling, fast again [Verse 1] I never thought it woulda happen, never imagined in a million years That I'd fall this hard and get kicked while I'm down by all my peers (fuck all of y’all) pardon me that's the Chardonnay talking But I hope you get struck by lightning though when you walking home Blackberry's an obituary Next to every other name beginning with A and ending with Z You'll notice it says R.I.P Never visited a grave, nah, that's not for me, there's no need Cause they're not deceased, they're just dead to me, call it good grief Shallow bitches throw them in the lake and see if they sink The average kid went from being decent to amazing Text message my ex “Quick look outside your crib” And stunt on her with my new whip and let everyone know I'm rich And my watch? Oh, that's an Audemars if you must know I park the mustard Maserati where your bus goes Accustomed to disappointment as far as trust goes I'll never let another person get close [Hook] I’m afraid to fly, and I don’t know why I’m jealous of the people who are not afraid to die It’s just that I recall, back when I was small Someone promised that they’d catch me And then they let me fall And now I’m falling Falling, fast again [Verse 2] Am I scarred or scared? I guess it's all the same No matter how much you pretend you change it's in your DNA He got me jumping hoops and running circles for no purpose Asthma kid, run faster for daddy. Is that it? This bastard passed his passive aggression I guess I'll catch it, I got nothing else to grab Don't wanna end up empty handed I must admit that it's best that he kept his distance He's got himself a new Mrs. he’s tryna repaint the picture 22 years later guess who's got an older sister ...Wait a minute, do the math I'm tryna understand Did I miss something in the past that I shouldn't have? Did he hide and deprive me from something that I could have had? They say the apple doesn't fall far from the tree, nope Chop it down and burn it up I wanna see smoke Hopeless dreams, I'm angry at the world Broken wings, I'm angry at the birds [Hook] I’m afraid to fly, and I don’t know why I’m jealous of the people who are not afraid to die It’s just that I recall, back when I was small Someone promised that they’d catch me And then they let me fall And now I’m falling Falling, fast again